My feelings grow
but I'm not sure how to express them.
Even when I'm sitting here, trying to write this,
I still can't get the words out.
All the superficial words and expressions,
you don't deserve.
I want it to be true
and from the heart.
I know I'm closed off
and you know I have a hard time
opening up.
The fear of being hurt stops me,
and prevents me from being as open as you want me to.
No excuses,
no lies.
I block people out,
by saying stupid things
which I found out can and most likely hurt you.
I want to be trust worthy
And, I want to trust you.
But you really can't trust a closed off person
who tries so hard to keep the walls up
with troops guarding it.
One of these days...
I will be able to,
I just hope that one of these days,
won't be too late.
Author notes
This is how evil my heart is. >.>
Please tell me what you think
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from personal experience.. I did the same exact thing.. only my "one of these days" came way too late. I cant express enough how much I hope you find it in yourself to open up to this person that you seem to truly care about...
I know it doesnt seem easy... but just let go and let what happens.. happen. if its meant to be.. it will be.
"Sometimes people put walls up, not to keep people out... but to see who cares enough to break them down"
very nice write. its been quite some time since Ive read any of your stuff! hope all is well.
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Fear not....it takes a special person to open a chink in the armour....and that special person will understand....without that its not worth it....i thought it was a great expression of self....great write
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