[ the wind blows through the trees ]

the wind blows through the trees
and whispers magicly until it reaches
you and me , well whats left of us
i lift my head to the sky
and desperatley try not cry
as im struggling with my tear ducts
which rebel against all of my better judgements
i am sorry, they have gotten the better of me
they spill over the sides and cover me
suddenly im on my knees weeping
though i know your in heaven watching me
protecting me, im at your grave and all i want
is for you to be her with me.
do you know the hardest thing is getting up
getting dressesd then trying to live with this regret?
i have your face in my head and things are so different
since your death all i can do is try and keep my face
numbly locked in place if i dont ,i crumple and i cant
trust my self to go anywhere and its not fair
i miss your scent and i miss your hair
i miss you so much now that your not here,
i really wish you where
i have so much to say but you slippd away
and i cant help but to reminisce about that day


my realtiy swirled and
came unfurled then plummeted downt to earth
the last day from your  birth to your end
you where the guy that EVERYBODY liked
the one with the messy hair and the dorky smile
you took my heart and i took yours
from that moment we where joined like a doubled edged sword
you where my whole , you where my world
i loved the way you smiled
and the way you looked like you had found something secret
or  how you smiled about something fantastic you had bought
the way it made your face light up
the way you could light me up
even when life was all messed up
you where the one to fix me up
put a bandaid on my cuts
and as we drove along
on a beautifull summer day
the heat came in waves
we headed to the beach
as carefree as the day and you looked at me
and played teasingly with my hair
i love you
you said passionatley and it left me sitting wordlessy.

but you should have been concentrating
we plunged headlong into the dark
as we dived head first in to another car

i cant say much more
i dont feel like opening locked doors
but i dont feel anymore
i just want you to hold me
and make things okay
i cant go a day without pleading for your touch
bleeding for your love the world is dim
since the day you went away
the pieces of me are littered around your grave
i visit there every other day
but this is not the end
you are waiting for me in heaven
until then ill keep wishing you where here
until my life passes and i can be in you arms
like we used to be when we where kids.