Valued

Uncontrollable desire
Impossible to satiate
The memories remain
I live in fear of that place
The opportunity I missed
The one I let go
How I got so close but couldn’t see
I’ll never know
Overcome a loss of hope
In shame I did hide
Convinced of my unworthiness
I refused to try
Three years have passed
I took that risk
I’ve relived that moment so many times
Kissing on a night so brisk
I worked too hard to let that go
I never felt like that again
It has become my goal
To never ask what could’ve been
No lost opportunities
No one will ever slip through
This has resulted in many conquests
And never being true
Now I feel strongly for one
I refuse to lose
Yet I’m still with others and
I’m the only one he woos
Stuck between what I worked to achieve
And something as simple as pie
I struggle to convince them both
That my life is not a lie