NO,NO,NO!!!
I begged, I pleaded in a loud scream
Wishing he would stop
Hoping this was a bad dream
He worked his way through my body
He took advantage of me
He took away my innocence
He took my virginity key
He stripped me of my worth
He beat me black and blue
Then kissed me forehead lightly
He said his love was "TRUE"
It started with a compliment
He treated me with care
Then he tricked me to follow him
Into his abusive lair
I guess it was really stupid
I believed his deceptive lies
The got hurt again and again
Now my heart is filled with endless whys
Why did he use me as his tool?
Why was I his pleasure toy?
Why did my pain and suffering
Lead to HIS endless joy
I guess I can't change what happened
It's much too late now
I guess its part my fault
Although you'd ask me "how?"
The say don't blame yourself
They say it's not your fault
They say that I will heal
But my battle is still being fought
I wake up every night
From endless nightmares
I'm haunted every day
Living in endless scare
You say I will get over it
You're just as bad as him
You're feeding my head with lies
You're just like the rest of them
You see I will never forget
I'll never get back what I lost
HIS pleasure and joy was torture
That led to innocent cost
So now I live my days in torture
Trying to believe your lies
I'm hidden in my pain
And night is filled with endless cries
A contest entry
- Pain You Can't Explain And More by BlackBloodyRose.
499 points, ended May 22, 2008, 46 entries
Gold trophy winner
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Wow this was intense and powerful!
It brings up a lot of bad memories for many people including myself but it gives some insight to those who have never known this pain.
It gives them an idea of how you were feeling at the time it happened and how you felt afterwards! Plus it shows how someone deals with this horrible reality that's happening all too often to too many girls!
So I thank you a million times for writing exactly what so many people never find the courage to write about or talk about!
I admire your bravery and your strength!
Absolutely great write!
Keep faith!
-Ash
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wow............
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this was beautiful and powerful i know how you feel it was hard to read but it was a great write youre better from writing it
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i have been raped so many times...it was so hard to read this..
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I was raped 2 years ago, and it was so difficult to read. I had to read parts of it in segments. I wish there was a memory eraser you know? And it is NOT your fault. He wass just being dumb.
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yeah i know
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Hard hitting
Despite being able to relate to this one its still really hard to read. You can't ignore how hard it must have been for you from the way this poem has been written. Bravo for shedding light on these issues though, noone should get away with doing these things. They mark you deeper than anyone esle could ever reaslise.
Stay strong hun
xXx
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i will stay strong thanx for reading the poem and commenting
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i understnd
i am also a victum of this crime u are discussing and let me tell u it does get better. no yet it hasn't but eventually u have to understand that it wasn't ur fault wut he did and that he was the fucked up one not u and that you will surive. it can destory u if u let it but u need to take control. the nightmares never end. but here is a secret...listen to music when u sleep, like backstreetboys or some crap that is happyish. it will make the nightmares get a little better. it oworkds and if u need someone to talk to i'm here -
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im starting to understand already. This is the first poem i wrote about what happened. I almost didnt post it, but i figured posting it would give me a bit of strength
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Wow very powerful. And I really feel sorry for anyone that has been betrayed by someone they thought cared for them. Anyone who causes pain to the people that love them for thier own please are scum and are worthless to society and should be locked away.
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thanx it means alot to me that you read this, after all your oe of the people who told me to use my writing as a tool of recovery in the first place
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