Dear Mother and Father,
you may want to sit down
I have something to tell you
you hoped you'd never hear this
And I know that all to well
that girl you've known for five years
She is a lie created by my mind
to hide the truth from you
Mommy, Daddy I am not okay
I need pills to make me better
But I need to tell you the truth
for five years now I have been hiding
Please don't look at me like that
take that glare out of your eye
No it's not drugs, sex or alcohol
now let me talk for once
Dad don't you dare walk away from me
not now, not when I'm coming clean
Sit back down on the couch
this is something you need to know
Mommy please stop crying
your baby girl will be alright after some time
Remember that notebook Mom?
The one that said suicide attempt
It wasn't a friend that tried, it was me
I hear your questions of why
And shouts of outrage mixed with disbelief
now quiet down, for I have more to tell
It started when Uncle Mike died
yes, I know I didn't seem hurt at all
But you missed something so important
the light went out of my eyes
How could you have missed it?
My smile had faded with my laugh
Didn't you notice how rarely I was home?
That I pushed you all away
Dad make Mom stop crying please
I can't stand seeing her hurt because of me
You want me to hurry this up
I don't know if I can
There is a lot you don't know about me
for example that knife from Uncle Mike
Soon became the drug for my pain
yes Mom, that means I cut myself
Many times, where? On my thigh
I knew you couldn't see it there
Daddy unclench your fist, put it down
you're scaring me, I know I lied
Mommy, hold him back he's about to jump
Mommy please don't let him get too close
I am so scared, Father, forgive me!
no I will never lie again
Can I return to my point?
A polite nod would be nice
I have been seeing a counselor
by the name of Clark-Miles
She diagnosed me as Manic Depressive
and says I need to be put on a pill
Please help me get it so I can be okay
you say we can't get the medicine
Why is money too tight?
Oh I see, you don't want to ruin our image
The "perfect" family people see us as
so you'd rather have me die
I can accept that Mommy and Daddy
just don't expect me to say good-bye
A contest entry
- Drop what your doing and write what you are thinking by HereComesTheSun.
450 points, ended May 25, 2008, 25 entries
Silver trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - For Our Parents by WhiteAngelCake.
700 points, ended August 18, 2008, 28 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Comments
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This make me so sad!
I love this poem. Thanks for entering my contest! 
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Wow. Damn, Matage. It's amazing. I'm sorry. But wow. I don't know what to say. This is really good. And I'm sorry.
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that left me speechless. i havent read something taht relates so well. i felt that way before my mom found out about everything. i was a fraid that we wouldn't be the "perfect" family anymore. i didnt know how to tell her. i like how u told them not to expect a goodbye. i waNTED MY mom to realize there wasnt any light in my eye eithre
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This is like exactly what I need to tell my parents, wow. This is um... damn lose of words. This is great, I guess is a way to really tell you what I am thinking about this... Is this about you?
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wow. wow
that is... wow
i dont know how to say how it makes me feel
who kares how it makes me feel
i love it
great write!!!!!!
love ya
and miss you more than anything else
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more appluase
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soooo amazing well done best so far
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oh yeah and after that really long comment i still forgot to tell you good luck in the contest tooo -♥ cyber hugs
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i really like your deep feelings you have put into this poem i like the expressions you say here, i like how you are ready to tell "us" even if you are not ready to really tell your family or if you are that is a wonderful thing, i hope that you will someday be able to move past the suicidal thoughts and that the past will make you stronger, i hope that you always remember you have friends and people who care about you on AP and we appricate your comments as much or more then you do ours, -♥ Amy if you want a more critial evaluation let me know i do see a few grammer erors that could help but i really dont want to give them if that wasnt what you were looking for -hugs
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