Lonely night

In the still of the eerie night
A gentle warm breeze flows through my hair
Warm and refreshing
Greek Mythology says it is zephyr
Oh how I wish I was like the wind
I would rise above and travel afar
Far away in a land where there is no sorrow
Am I dreaming?
I am laden with heavy sorrow.
Encumbering me in a disease that will never let go
Oh how I wish I was the wind
That passes gently through the night
I look up at the dark blue sky
The stars glow in a flickering manner
Are they talking to me in a language unknown?
The lunula gazes at me in wonder
A desire to tell me secrets the world has never known
I gaze at it in amazement – a sudden feeling grows in my heart
Amusement written all over its face
HAH! I look at myself pitifully
So is this how it is to live
Where even the universe above doesn’t spare you
Oh how I wish I was dead
Free from every human entity
Oh what joy shall fill my writhing heart
Clutching at everyone’s mercy
I stand above the valley so deep
I look down, fear engulfs me
Is this how I want to end my life?
Yes I believe so; the world would only mock me one last time and in the end I would have the final laugh