Waking up at three AM
the darkness outside pressing into my room
Staring at my bulletin board
covered in images and quotes of thinspiration
Doing three hundred sit-ups
with hard bony edges digging in
to the hard cold floor of my bedroom
Doing fifty push ups without stopping
Slipping downstairs passed sleeping parents
who dream nightmares of skeletons
and of their starving daughter
Making a pot of hot coffee
Drinking it all black but sweetened
with packets and packets of sweet n low
Piling on the sweatshirts
even though it's a hot summer night
Sliding through the door
closing it so it so it doesn't make a creak
Running down the street
pushing myself harder and harder
whispering one line in my head
"I will get thinner. I will lose ten more pounds."
Ten miles later I'm back inside
Guzzling down a two liter bottle of Diet Coke
Popping two diet pills in my mouth
Five Am
the light is pressing through the darkness
Walking into the bathroom
Shedding my double zero jeans that have gotten too big
Stepping on to the scale
Another five pounds gone
Still not enough
"Just ten more pounds"
I promise myself
"Ten more pounds and I'll stop starving myself"
But deep down I know
Ten more pounds won't be enough
It will never be enough
A contest entry
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300 points, ended June 10, 2008, 45 entries
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Comments
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Wow..
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that is such a great write. i can relate so much. and like viva la vie bohema said i dont mess with diet pills either. ths poem is crazyly good
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Amazing poem. Especially when you can relate. Except the diet pills, that's not something I mingle with, but otherwise, that's exactly it. You captured it well.
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amazing
i love all the emotion and everything about this poem!!
it's amazing
it's crazy needless to say, i hate it but love it all at the same time...and i don't think that's normal?? but i've never been normal i don't guess
i can so relate to this poem it's amazing i loved how there was so much emotion and the imagery when i was reading it very good!! keep it up
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