Love Changed My Life

I am sitting here wasting my time.
Doing nothing but losing my mind.
It gets so hot I can not  hardly think.
Everything is bright red, then pink.

The Monster comes then visits me in my sleep.
I pray, I cry, for Jesus then I fiercely weep.
The pain will not stop it's always been in my head.
It will never leave me not until I'm dead.
I once worked for the wrong crowed.
They keep screaming Its was ongoing so loud.
I am learning to stop this pain in my mind.

Please forgive me on how I am.
Please forgive me for I had sinned.
I'm trying my hardest to forget the past.
The nightmares will not let me because thats all I had.

You have shown me the way, the way of change.
Sometimes it's different sometimes its strange.
I feel in my heart I want this change.
I never knew love would give me a new start.
My love for you is all in my heart.

Please understand why I am different from the rest.
I have been taught I can never be the best.
I have problems that never seems to heal.
It is so great to tell you how I feel.
Baby... I will give you my heart, mind, then soul.
Because to feel your love, Is like the passion of an open rose.