Mistakes, Loss, Hope

A week that started slow.
New sights abundant,
Temptations lurking, begging to go.
With warning my answers should've remained redundant.
Yet swayed into darkness,
And fueled by denile.
My vision blurs by weakness,
Dishonored by a lifestyle.
Choices mine alone.
Pain mine to bear.
Actions now done.
Hurt by a crowd's stare.
Days of torment and nights of "what if?"

A phone rings, my thoughts grow dormant.
What I hear I fall adrift,
And my soul takes flight in haste.
Unexpected bears the deepest of pains.
Thankful he was never disgraced,
With his life no longer held in physical reign.
His legacy lives within me.
A life chosen to honor him clearly.
Never said allowed, I chose this for you.
Honored to follow his path.
In your eyes I've seen the world through.
Truth of losing you awakened my wrath.
In my wrath my passion was provoked.

Love for her unbounded,
Life planned together invoked.
A sense of character founded.
Dreams slowly slipping,
Reality seams to be bending,
Time eagerly ripping,
A future no longer pending.

Dreams now form reality.
Future consumes the mind,
Lost in blinded infallity.
All things fall behind.
Forever an unequivocal joy.
Which even more hosts to employ.
Lovers of hearty soul.
Believers in beauty as a whole.