Need To Be Whole

Sometimes in my dreams I see my future child.

I'm in a room alone and cold I turn to see a hallway and at the end is the door I know I need to open. I run forward with the fear in my heart that I'll never reach it. But as I draw nearer warmth seems to eminate from the door calming me in a way i never thought possible.

I turn the silver knob and it opens to a field of emerald green speckled with blues, yellows, and pinks. To the left the burning gold sun is high in the sky and to my right a willow tree with its branches swaying in the light breeze.

Underneath lays a child wrapped in a soft white blanket. It reaches out to me with its dimpled hands. I pick it up and admire its peaches and cream skin and stare into its eyes that are so like my own.

At last i feel  the warmth inside that I'd been longing for.

The warmth that finally makes me feel whole.