Infinite Questions

Love is the infinite question that is on my mind
& in my heart everyday I wake up & fall asleep.
Love puts the fun in together,the sad in apart,
the hope in tomorrow & the joy in the heart.
What does that mean for me?
As I think about that question,
I begin to realize something....
All those years of searching for love
has only created more questions.
Am I capable of love?

Ready to face the answers to my questions,
I slowly unravel the chains to my Pandora's Box.
Inside my box was things I longed forgot about.
Things that I feared I could never get over.
Will I understand the pain?
On my mind was my past relationships.
How & why they ended.
Mainly,it was me.
How could I be so destructive?
Now I see why I created my Pandora's Box.
To protect myself & others from my true nature.
What can I do to change?

Darkness was the only thing I knew.
It had protected me for so long.
I became so rigid & hollow.
Is this why I'm so numb?
Anger begins to swell inside me,
but I contained it.
I knew what I had to do.
Closing the box,I felt reborn.
Ready to take on anything.
Was I really ready?
Will the questions ever stop?
I doubt it.
When we first fall in love,
we feel that we know all there is to know about life.
The truth is....we don't.

Even the great love poets had trouble finding that special love.
For some people,love is like an avalanche
where you have to run for your life.
Soul-mate searching is blind.
Soul-mates don't finally meet somewhere or appear.
They're in each other all along.
Once you see into someone's soul,
you're attached forever.
To be honest,I learned a few things.
When you close the doors to your heart from love,
it was a way of coming in through the windows.
True love does not come by finding the perfect person,
but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

I feel that we waste time looking for the perfect lover,
instead of creating the perfect love.