You didn't deserve this.
You didn't deserve the things I said.
The words that formed on my lips
weren't meant for your ears,
but I said them just the same.
And you didn't deserve to have the door
slammed shut
two inches from your face,
But I had to.
Because I didn't deserve to have everything you said
screamed at me
as if you thought I didn't get it.
Oh no,
I got it.
I got it drilled into my brain
even though I didn't want it there.
And I should be asleep now,
but I cant ignore the stinging in my face
from where I didn't deserve to be slapped,
but you hit me anyway.
So here I am.
A frozen, tear-stained ball
because I threw the blankets and pillows onto the floor
and I thought that
I didn't deserve to be comfy
if I was going to feel this way.
And maybe I didn't deserve to be a part of this family,
because every time I open my mouth,
we all end up like this.
So maybe I should leave.
Run away
to end up as somee poor, abused ward of the state of New Mexico
Where everyone pities me
and no one cares
Because I don't deserve to be cared for.
And maybe,
I don't deserve to live
and you'd both be happier
if I crawled into a corner,
and cried while I bled to death.
Never to return
because whenever I'm around
you're always angry and upset.
And you don't deserve that.
But maybe I do.
And then I go recover the blankets
and fall asleep to dream
of how,
maybe,
I don't deserve to feel this way.
A contest entry
- Make me cry =] [p/w allowed] by LeilaJayne.
500 points, ended May 10, 2008, 28 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Enrapture and Intoxicate by FlipperSwitch.
670 points, ended May 13, 2008, 28 entries
Gold trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
I NEED A TITLE PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Comments
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I still say this one of your most amazing and sad poems. You do not deserve to feel that way or be treated that way, no matter what. Remember that. But really, this is absolutley amazing.
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Amazing, I love your usage of the term 'maybe' and how you change your feelings around at the end to make the poem even better and stronger, with just the right amount of emotion. Thanks for entering.
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Just a quick comment to say thanks for entering this into my contest, sorry you didnt win but obviously there can only be three trophies given, which is a shame cause in this contest there deserved to be alot more winners! xxx
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Aww so sad!!! Thanks for entering! x
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a good tital would be "did i deserve this?"
this is a good poem
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I suggestion for the title is I'm sorry but did I deserve it, or deserving
just my 2 cents
FYI I LOVE this poem
great job it flows well and gets across your story
keep up the good work
P.S. my poetry is bad
P.P.S *poke*
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