Too Much

I sit here in utter disbelief
I had trusted you like no other
And to repay that you betray me down to my soul
You criticized me on my mistakes, on all the wrongs I made
And yet you have done worse misdeeds then I
What can I do, I don't want to hurt you
And I don't want to defend you form the consequences
I have no way of following you on your path

I sit here, wallowing in despair and confusion
Never deciding on what I should do
You managed to do what few others could
You betrayed me, my trust, and backed me into a corner
I still love you with all my heart but I still cannot follow
If only you had thought about your actions
If only you had done what was right
All would be as it once was, those many years ago

But to think it is my fault that you have become what you are
I have not been there for you every step of the way
I have not taught you what I had learned
So your mistakes are mine
There is no excuse for what I have done
In some inconceivable way I had led you astray
Took you from the path you should have walked
And for that I am truly sorry

So in truth, you did not betray me, I had betrayed you
This is not enough i could do in the world to make up for what I had done
Yet there is no excuse not to punish you
There is too much confusion in my life
There is not enough reason to figure this out
So in the end I can do nothing
And for this I am truly sorry my brother