finally lost it!!

help me!
my mind's become a blur
i cannot think properly
100 things are there on my mind
filling all the space there at the same time
a coherent thought is hard to find
Oh Gosh!! i have finally lost my mind!

i wanna die but I'll miss out on life
i wanna drop out but I'll miss out on a year
i wanna drink but i am not old enough
i wanna sing but it might break my own ears
i wanna laugh out loud but mum might start to cry
thinking asylum is my final abode
i wanna break but i might have to go through a lot of pain
i wanna play but then who will study in my place
i wanna run but it might make me too fragile to breathe...

Oh stop me!! or I'll keep on rambling
i cannot believe
this is the last straw even for me
i gotta stop thinking
or i might actually lose it forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!