Something wasn't right,
I knew I couldn't stay
So I jumped into my car
And drove home straight away.
I walked into the house
With a steady pace.
I made my way upstairs
And saw my angles happy face.
She had waited for me to get home
Waited for my loving embrace;
She looked so revieled and happy
Just to see my face.
She smiled at me, and wagged her stumpy tail
Then got up to say hello;
She had been in bed all day, and hadn't moved
Little did I know.
Her tongue was dry, her legs were droopy
It was hard for her to walk;
She had so much to say, and said it all
Without the need to talk
She was happy to see me, as was I
She was my companion, my best friend;
We were each others soul mates
I knew she would be there until the end.
I've had her since I was ten
My little boxer, of nine years old;
She was pampered like a princess
There are so many stories to be told.
Two months ago I got told my dad was dying of cancer
And in six months time he will have died;
She came into my room and comforted me
While into her fur I cried.
Suddenly, deep into my eyes she stared
I instantly knew something wasn't right
She sat down and pushed her head into my chest;
And I hugged her close and tight.
With her soft fur in my fingers,
And the intensity of our hug;
We had such a strong bond of love and friendship
I felt so safe and snug.
I felt so warm, and so relaxed
With this love we both grew to know;
She was my little baby girl
And I'd never let her go
She withdrew from the hug, stared into my eyes
Then put her paw up in my hand;
She had a sad look upon her face
That I did not understand.
I squeezed her paw, and held it tight
Her soul I felt was here;
Suddenly she collapsed into my arms
As I froze in horrible fear
"TESSA, TESSA! WAKE UP, WAKE UP!
COME BACK!! You'll be OK!"
Her lifeless body lay in my arms
There was nothing I could do or say.
I squeezed her tightly into my chest,
As I sat there, I screamed and cried;
My baby girl, my best friend and soul mate
Had left me here and died.
Wake up Tessa! You’re just asleep,
I shook her and held her head;
My mind was racing, my dad came over;
Held me in his arms and said “she’s dead”
My world just stopped, I couldn't stop crying
Her time had finally come;
As she lay there silent and lifeless
I went completely numb
I lay down beside her, pulled her close to me,
Time had frozen, it was 5:11.
I held her tightly, and whispered into her ear;
..."Wait for me in heaven."
Author notes
This just happened two days ago, and I am still crying non stop. I hoped writing about it would help, and it did in a way, but nothing is going to heal my pain. She really was my best friend, and I cant express my emotions in words. There is no words to describe how I feel. I gave it my best shot, so let me know what you tink, or if this has happened to you or you know how I feel, let me know. thank you for reading. Chrissy.
R.I.P Tessa xoxox
A contest entry
- Intense Emotion - PW Welcome by Heavens Child.
300 points, ended May 31, 2008, 32 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - My Welcome Back by Amorous Arms.
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Let me know what you think. Thank you for your time :)
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I was just looking through my bookmarks, and thought this looked familiar. I read it and started crying. I looked for my comment and found it on page 2. I can't believe how emotional this piece is. It brings back memories of my Pandy. I miss him. I miss Tessa too, though I don't know her, but the sorrow finds a place in my heart as it does in yours.
Still giving you more than three claps, in my head...
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This is 1 poem that i understand better then most..... having gone through it 10 times before.... i try 2 move on but cant.... and though its been 4 monthes sense # 10 died...... i havent been able 2 walk past the trees planted as tombstones...... i just cant.... but i often find myself talking out the window staring at their graves..... as though their right next to me.... im soooo sorry for the loss of your pet and best friend..... i hope ur heart heels a little..... i know it hurts..... talk to me if you ever and i mean EVER need sum1 2 talk 2.... -hugs- Megz
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This is very emotional. I myself got a bit misty eyed, which is hard for someone to make me do with poetry. I'm so terribly sorry for the loss of your friend. She must have been a very lovely creature for you to feel like you do. I wish you a speedy healing, though all wounds inflicted upon the heart take their bitter sweet time to scar. Remember you made her last minutes on this earth happy just by being with her. Great wrtie.
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Im sorry for your loss
This read hurt my heart....I feel for you and there truly arent words except I am sorry and I am glad you were able to get some of your emotions out like this (for me it always helps) ....This is a write that shows your love and loss...so very sad.
You know Tessa will be there waiting for you....
Heaven wouldnt be Heaven without dogs.
Such a touching write, I hope your heart heals soon.
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im so sorry for all this. how terrible. it is a beautiful write though,
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Oh honey, I am so sorry for your loss. You penned a very touching and emotional piece here. My heart goes out to you, truly.
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I'm so sorry that your dog passed. Its hard to loose an animal, especially when its become family. the day after mothers day our rabbit died. It was one of the most heartbreaking things i had ever experienced. Great poem however
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I am very sorry for your loss. So many people just can't understand the pain of losing a dog- they have never known the unconditional love, the joy, the deep bond of owning such a pet. Pity them, for they have truly missed out on one of the great things in life.
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WOW, cannot believe how good this was. Sorry about Tessa and I hope that you can pull through this Okay. I dont know how to give more than three points so Im giving you three. If I knew how to I'd give you 20
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This is so sad and heart breaking
I am so vey sorry about the loss of your beautiful faithful friend and companion Tessa. She must have loved you very, very much, and I am so moved by the emotions and love you express for your lovely loyal pet.
She hung on for you to come home, she needed to see you. When my daughter was dying, she hung on for 4 days semi conscious, and sort of agitated and the Doctor asked if her 7 year old son had been to see her as she couldn't let go of life until he had been to see her.
He was brought to the hospital and she heard his voice she became restful, and as he was loving and kissing his mom, she died. My daughter had hung on for her son.
And your faithful friend and companion Tessa had hung on for you. She was just so glad that you were home, and she went to sleep in the best place she knew in your loving arms, held by her best friend, some one who had always been there for her, and you were with her as a comfort to her, to hold her, and love her as you had always done, through out her life.
Tessa felt safe, and secure in your love, the time came that she had to go, and you were with her, her best buddy, the love of her life. My thoughts are with you at this sad time. Huggggggs xxx
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Brings back Memories of Gretta
Your write expressed the mood of loosing a pet, a friend, and a soul mate so vividly. It is amazing how we can become so attached to an animal. Yes, it brought tears to my eyes as I read your heartfelt story. I am sorry, for your loss my child, I know there is a part of you now that can never be replaced.
BIG HUGS in sympathy for your loss.
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Wow is was so in tears on this one! Omg you hit the spot with this! I agree with everyone else this is the best write i have read on here yet! Awesome Awesome job! I am so sorry for you! One day you'll see her again! It hard to lose a friend like that! I know had to watch mine go to and it was hard! But anyway awesome write!
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oh my gosh.
this broke my heart and brought tears to my eyes.
I am so sorry for your loss. that kind of pain is so horrible. I am sorry that you had to experience it. but I know your baby Tessa is waiting in heaven just for you just like my mom. hope your heart starts healing soon dear.
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This poem is wonderfully written. It explains your feelings well. I felt that I was right there beside you feeling all your pain. Good luck in the contest. You deserve it! I wish I could write like this. I'm so sorry that you went through this.
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i'm so sorry for your loss the poem is beautiful t
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wow that was just amazing! I know when my dog dies it will ruin me. I know soon he will and it breaks my heart. He is very old and sometimes I think when he is sleeping he is gone forever. thank you for this write i will remember it when he is no longer with me
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Awe.... I am so sorry you had a very close bond with your pet. This was an intense piece full of emotion.
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This is really sad, you have so beautifully expressed how you feel... I'm not sure and I'm not trying to tell you what to do but maybe it would have been good to write this poem without the rhymes so you feelings can flow even more easily and this might also be easier to read or understand for the readers...
Anyway, I like this piece very much because you have spilled your heart out, I can feel the desperation and sadness in your words...
Always try to remember the good timey you had together.
Annie
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omg that made me cry..especially at the end. i lost my dog "cuie", i loved her soo much. i think your poem was AMAZING!!
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This is such a sweet poem! I am so sorry for the lose of your dog. Try to keep smiling, I am sure that is what she would have wanted. A smile for you..
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WOW!! losing a pet is the worst feeling in the world....im sorry to hear that but this is a really good write....
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wow that's really deep and touching in a way, and for some reason it made me feel at peace with the fact that my mom passed away two years ago. I guess it just made my day because it was so heartfelt and touching and sad at the same time. I love your poem
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Amazing
This is the best poem by far I have seen on this site. this poem has touched me so deeply... I know what its like to lose a pet. I lost my rabbit and a horse and it does hurt quite immensely Im sure she is waiting for you in heaven Im sorry for your loss. God Bless
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Heartfelt and Wonderful.
I'm crying after reading your poem. I so loved a pet like that. My Loki was a new born kitten that I rescued from being eaten, I bottle fed her and potty-trained her and she was almost human. She had 2 babies when she was 9 monthes old, whom I still have, she was hit and killed by a car right after she weaned her babies, that was about a year ago, and I still cry for her, she was my "baby" and I will love her forever, your poem brought back all the love and heartache that I felt for my Loki. Great,Great poem, and I'm so sorry that you lost your best friend.
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Its an enjoyable and to a certain extent poignant piece of poetry. However, call me callous and obdurate if you wish, but i find it rather exaggerated to the point where it begins to bother you and makes you lose interest. There is no real structure or rhyming pattern, and syllables and meters and everything is just all over the place. Good attempt thought, you obviously know how to channel your emotions through poetry. However please try to plan it out and maybe give it more of a structure next time
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I can see why someone put this in the spotlight.
It is such a beautiful story of love and friendship,
with your soulmate. This piece has really touched my heart. I am so very sorry for your loss. Tessa is in heaven and in peace now. I hope you feel better soon.
This outstanding poem would make Tessa proud in her own little way.
Loveandblessings2u & yours always
Joyce
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I'm in tears right now. Heartwrenching.
I have also lost a dog I grew up with for 16 years. They really are God's little angels. Your poem evoked such emotion in me and took me back to the time I had to let my love go. I also cannot wait to be reunited in Heaven. Thanks so much for such beautiful compassion.
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A sweet poem clearly showing that pets are truly great friends. Its so hard to see them go.
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oh you poor poor thing
Thats so so sad. What a wonderful expression of the emotions you must have been feeling...I hope she is happy in doggy heaven
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Amazing
Omg i am so so very sorry for your loss. I too am a dog lover and if anything happened to one of my four puppys i would not be able to cope.
I hope your beautiful writing helps you cope..
take care! I hope you are doing ok.
"time had frozen" that is a perfect line. I can so relate to that feeling of frozen time.
You nailed it. Just Amazing
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Oh my, so very sad. I am terribly sorry for your loss. Just know that she is in a better place now and that someday(hopefully in the very distant future) you will be with her again forever.
I have had several animals in my life and each one of them holds a special place in my heart. It is all part of the circle of life and each of us must pass, but let the tears out because your baby was worth the whole lot of them. For every animal that has gone in my life I have shed many tears. Anyhow, bless your baby girl and bless you for having the strength to cope. This was a lovely poem. Thank you for giving us the pleasure to read your pain.
~Krys~
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Ohhhh, I am so sorry! My pupper is my best friend and my little girl! She thinks she is human much of the time & I would just fall apart in your shoes. What a lovely, lovely tribute to your baby!
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Omg this had tears streaming down my face. Seriously. I'm SO sorry! Omg!! I'm so sorry, I would hug you if I could. You're going through so much. I hope you're ok. My kitty died last month or so and I know how deep the sorrow is. My kitty I have had since I can remember got put to sleep, and I was with him when he died. He had Lukemia and AIDS and he got a mouth infection and kept trying to kill himself. My mom took me out of school and we took him to the vet. I'll never forget that moment. I'm sure you won't either. A few seconds before he was officially dead, I squeezed him in my arms and yelled, "Pandy, I'm sorry!" I feel so guilty, like I killed him. It'll all be ok. I would seriously give this poem more than three claps if it was possible. I'm so sorry for your loss. I am SO bookmarking this.
Love and hugs.
~Pandy
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oh my goodness, that must have been really hard. some people don't understand the attatchment between people and their pets, but its deep. no one can ever take that from you. i usually dont like poems that rhyme, but i didn't even notice because the emotion was so deep, i was right there with you when i was reading it. its really good.
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I know just how you feel. I lost my dog of thirteen years just three months ago... The loss is so hard to bear. She's in a better place, just remember that. She'll always be wating for you.
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Oh Chrissy, No one should ever belittle the agony of losing a pet. I have a wonderful dog called Rupert, I also have a family, husband and 3 children. Obviously I would be devestated if anything happened to anyone in my family, but that doesn't mean I won't be as sad as can be when my dog goes. When times get tough I go and sit quiety beside him and just pat him, he seems to absorb my stress. In fact I wrote a lovely poem about him http://allpoetry.com/poem/4203017 because I love him so much. Your poem is beautiful, a wonderful tribute to your pet. You know I think to love an animal so much is a very good thing, especially in a young person, because it teaches us so much for when children come into our lives at a later date, to love a pet teaches us to love other humans. I really beleive that. It doesn't take much for someone who is cruel and heartless to an animal to take the next step and be cruel and heartless to human. Years ago my father had his 2 cats poisoned by someone, who then rang up to make sure they were dead, I was 19 myself at that time and I watched as he and my Mum sobbed over their lost pets (I was so proud of them for loving their pets that much) The police didn't want to know, but honestly I think they should have, how easy would it have been for someone who deliberately killed animals to take the next step. So you spend some time in grief for your pet, its the right thing to do and don't let anyone tell you that its wrong to do so.
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This poem is so moving. I cried a little when I read the part where the dog died. It reminded me of when the cat I had for 17 years died while I was in college. I too was very sad.
I also agree with Tabby Joy that Joshua Mark's comments were indeed thoughtless. Being attached to a pet is something that just happens, we can't control the love we feel for our animals. In addition, he/she should have taken into consideration the age of the author, who is in fact, a young adult and likely had the dog since childhood. I can't believe how rude some people are. Clearly, we all experience different depths of pain and it's wrong for one to tell how another should be feeling. I too hope that Joshua Mark is not as callous as he appears as our world doesn't need those any more of callous apathy. We have quite enough.
Chrissy626...I'm sorry for your loss. I hope you don't let a careless comment get to you. You are perfectly right to be sad. Cry as much as you want and express your sadness in the way that seems appropriate to you. Also, I'm sorry for your Father's illness.
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Oh my word..this is heartbreaking. You took me there with you to that horrible moment and I almost cried. So very well done...and I am so so sorry for your loss.
As for the person who made the previous comment... pretty heartless to bash someone in their time of loss. Hope you aren't as calloused as you sound. True, dogs shouldn't be placed above human beings...but the writer here was clearly just expressing personal pain. Who are we to criticize someone who is in mourning? Man that ticks me off.
And as for dogs going to heaven, I happen to have majored in Bible, and can tell you that nowhere does Scripture say whether or not animals go to heaven. It does say there will be animals in heaven (the lion will lay down with the lamb, etc.). It is unclear whether or not those creatures will be the same as those that lived on earth. So next time, lets at least get our facts straight before we go and crush someone's dreams.
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Riddiculous
Dogs don't go to heaven, and just wow..... Really good write, but you feeling that way about a dog is pathetic. It's not a good thing when your best friend is a dog.........wow -
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Joshua Mark .... are you serious?
This could be one of the most RIDICULOUS comments I have ever read....and TRUST me, I have read some pretty freakin' STUPID comments here at AP....but Gold Trophy winner for the stupidest ever....DING DING right here...we got a winner...
First off you spelled ridiculous wrong.
Second....why even leave a comment when someone is hurt by something because your narrow mind doesnt understand her pain? Your how old? 18? and you understand the world already huh? You know who does and doesnt go to heaven?
This girl here, Chrissy626 ....has a good heart and luckily she was blessed with the joy of pure love and loyalty that comes from the love of a pet....
SO sad for you that you come from one of those families that have no idea of the killjoy that comes from thinking only humans are capable of getting and giving love.
HYSTERICAL that you think you know it all....mostly because I have read some of your stuff and to think you have the right to call ANYONES feelings pathetic is utterly RIDICULOUS (only spelled correctly).
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Heartless..
I dont care about what you think. Everything with a heart and brain has feelings for another. Heaven is supposed to be the best place you have ever been to. A place of pure happieness. My heaven wouldnt be happy without my dog Tessa, and i dont care if your a heartless human being. And yes my dog was my best friend. i loved her so much. Im crying myself to sleep every night, and this message from you just tops off my day. Thanks for your comment.
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yes I have a couple of piece like this , they are indeed and can be ourt best friends, they just know what we need, i think even be fore we know it sometimes...
here is one of my dog pieces... hope it helps to ease the pain
Yellow Dog
A yellow dog lies
in a yellow field.
Thinking of greener days,
legs twitching in canine dreaming.
Of fresh water, and tasty kibble,
a special stick thrown by its master.
Rusted stripe down his back,
a flag of sorts, dogged wisdom.
Ten years old, he still has some spry,
a spring in his lope, a point yet to fang.
Eyeteeth seeing all, pink nose knowing
the smells of this field.
Where the rabbits burrow,
where squirrel makes it home.
The far off lament of distant freight trains running.
A yellow dog sleeps in a yellow field,
a small white cross marking his bed.
He will run forever in yellow fields,
Running, and dancing amongst the golden stalks.
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sad but wow
this was a great write. I remember losing my rottweiler. He was my Guardian angel, always keeping me out of harm's reach. When I lost him my heart was torn. So I know how that feels. He saved my life and lost his so I could live. I loved that dog so much. You could get another dog but I know it will never take her place. -
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Ohhh! Thanks for making me CRY! That was beautiful...*sniff* I'm sorry for the lost of your doggie- my cat of 18 yrs died two years ago and it was hard for me to watch her pass.
Great rhymning with your poem...
I hope that you shall feel better soon!
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I can appreciate how you are feeling. I have a dog who is 11 now - and she is starting to have problems walking. I know it is not long now, but I am dreading the day I have to make a decision - it will be hard. This poem is so personal and so full of your love for your dog. You never forget them - I had a dog that we got when I was 6 and someone poisoned him when I was 13 - I still look at his picture sometimes. Same with the cats I have had. They all have a special place in my heart.
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Aw... You really made me tear up...... This is very vivid and you really pull me into your captivating tale. I felt like sobbing all the way through -- this is a good poem.
I can really tell you put your heart into it.... I'm sure your pup would be happy for you; if she could read it
This is a beautiful tale woven with beautiful words.
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My Empathy to you
I cannot put into words anything that will relieve your pain in just a mere comment, but this is the most moving poem I have ever read. I feel the same about my dog-a scotty, who recently nearly died of an unidentifiable virus that put him 4 days in the vet hospital. I know the pain. I can offer you at best, from my short list of poems, so consolation if it would please you. I know we can relate.
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:'(
Made me cry. I just lost 11-year-old German shepherd a few weeks ago, and I've had him since I was four. Then, yesterday, my pomeranian of 9 years whose mother we had and who I helped raise from when she was whelped, followed him--they'd been inseperable and, well, she got all depressed and such when he died.
I definately know how you feel--I cried for two weeks after my shepherd died, every time I was alone.
It may sound callouse, but I'd say get a new dog--or a cat. Or even a fish; just get something to keep you company and make you smile.
I'm... Sorry about your dad. I.. Don't understand the grief of losing your father, so it's merely apathetic, but I'll put it to mind as if it were my mother...
Good luck and, don't worry--once you hit rock bottom, things can only get better.
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This made me cry! My rottie is 9 this year... I'd be the same way as you if she died.
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*hugs* I know your pain, although it was a hamster that I had gotten for my birthday and had for six months. I currently own a dog now, and if she died I would probably be like you. *hugs( Good luck in your contest.
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