With the quiet stillness of my dark and empty room
I often give way to thoughts
that I sometimes cannot explain.
Like the thought that some times I wish I could hate you.
That would be so much easier for me. Or so I sometimes think.
If only I could convince this shattered heart of mine
that I never loved you.
If only I could erase all the lies that I have told myself
about you.
That I could see you
not with love filled eyes
but as others might see you.
Still, as I quickly come back to my senses
I realize that by not having loved you
I would have missed so much joy in my life.
Like our long walks in the many gardens we found
on the various worlds we visited.
Playing in the warm waters of the oceans of your home world,
The all night card games with our friends
that would last late into the wee hours of the morning.
Most of all though I would miss the times
when we would just sit quietly arm in arm
lazily gazing out into a moon filled sky
just enjoying each others company.
These were happy times for me.
Yet with much pain and trepidation I also recall
that terrible time when you left me.
I remember all the pain…
all the grief…
all the loss that I suffered with your departure.
Now, I can honestly tell you that my heart
was completely shattered.
Shattered into a million pieces.
That my restless Soul still aches terribly to have you near me
Nothing else can ease its pain.
Sadly, though, as time has passes me by,
I have learned, that there will be no gentle touches
to soothe my aching heart.
No super-human strength for me to lean on when times get bad.
No love to face a cruel universe with.
Without you my friend
Walking with me through out this life
I have nothing……
nothing but this Soul crushing emptiness.
Without you, I feel that I am only a shadow.
A specter of what was
living only on the memories
of what we had before.
So now, you can understand why it is
that sometimes when I am alone
and hurting
that I think of you
and how it was when we were together
and I wonder
would it have been easier
if I could tell myself that I never loved you.
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A contest entry
- Anything you want...Show me Your Best Poems..I need inspiration..PW's Welcome! by Hetha.
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This hit home hard...I LOVED this poem...WOW im going threw a hard break up...But this poem made me cry and realize that no matter what I cant lie to myself I do love him its to bad he couldnt love me
...But amazen job on this poem AMAZEN 
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You write in a style that I can't do but it is one hell of a write of raw emotions in words that we can all understand. No pretence here, just real feelings. I am glad I stopped by, it was well worth the read.
Sheila
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Wow
I agree with the person who commented before! This definitely expressed everything I have been currently feeling. This is an amazing write.
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Heartbreaker
You are quite the heartbreaking poet, aren't you? Another story filled with painful words. You are really talented. Keep up the good work.
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your comment on my poem SOMETIMES I WISH I HAD NEVER LOVED YOU
Yeah I do love to write very emotional, sometimes happy, sometimes sad poems. Lately it has been sad. I also went through a stormy time... a time when all my work had rain storms in it. Then I went through a time when my poems had someone walking somewhere. A corridor... a street... So I guess I go through phases.
Thanks for telling me that I am talented. That is always nice to hear from someone.
Hugs,
trekkergirl
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