Double Sestina Variation

One by one I ascend upon beautiful steps
This is the beginning of my wonderful  struggle
Life an etching of figures deep in gray stone
Perfectly written behind us in led swirls.
I keep my soul gazing up into the sky.
I make out unknwon but angelic figures
Now I take in the warmth of a pleasant sun.
I’m thinking this muct be a touch of heaven.
A place where life is slow and everything is easy
and deep within our heart we can feel the shine
an omnipresent and ever shinning light
that swaddles our hearts and cradles our lost souls.

For enlightment we must go to the light.
For therein lies the answer to perfect the soul.
Everyday in our life we are taking steps
I hope upwards toward the perfection of heaven.
The way up these stairs will never be easy.
There are winds that blow hard with gelid swirls.
Massive and jagged monoliths of rolling stones.
That confronts us as we rise in our struggle.
There are days that storms come and obscure the sun
and within the gray you see demonic figures.
By faith you know this stairway goes to the sky
To the upper relam where the sun always shines.

I have asked God why not always a clear sky
Why cant we always have a sun that shines.
Unanswered I go on with a tinge of light.
Hope its enough to keep me in my struggles.
My journey up is more than halfway to the sun
Still, it is an eternity to heaven.
Long enough that I don’t count the steps
and I still fear turning into a fallen soul.
My hands are callus from grasping at the stones.
I’m still exposed to these hard winds that swirl.
Up I go to reach that figurative light.
Higher and higher ascending the stairs of heaven.


With all of my love I struggle to the light
Just for my small and simple piece of heaven.
I have seen many who have fallen from the sky
Below are the wrecks of shambled souls.
They lie broken upon boulders and stones
and some with a smidegon of hope still struggle
It’s a perilous jouney to reach the light
You can get blinded by the glare of life’s shine
Its always best to be careful with each step
We keep climbing and seeking the sun
as we continue on getting lost in the swirls
I go higher and higher to touch the sun

Lose myself within delusional swirls
I searhed but never found a way that’s easy
Except to turn and walk away from the shine
Im a dreamer dreaming of taking the stepos
I feel gods desire within my sou;l
I can sense his gaze looing down from the sky
I try to vision his celetial figure
right now I walk with a tiny guiding light
And when the wind blows in darkness I struggle
Im feeling my way slow upon the slick stones
Telling myself again there is a heaven
I have fallen helpless upon these stones

As I go through hell to get to my heaven
God strenthen me and made my way easy
His angels are also within cloudy swirls
sometimes his love touches sime in the blue sky
A new seed of faith planted deep within my soul
I quicken my pace even skip a few steps
Upward and onward refreshed in my struggle
High up in the sky I know there is the sun.
Thiough walking these stones has never been easy
I take these steps for im in nede of the elight
Ive been lost in wirls and have felt the sun shine
Ive seen fallen soukls the way they’re disfigured
Im struggling up this starway to heaven