The Unknown

These fears are unknown
I dont know why but they cannot be shown
Telling you is out of the question
even though thats all you've suggested
You are very special
I care for you dearly
I know that when you ask it is only sincerely
You only want to help me
But this cannot be helped
not by you
not by anyone but from the one above
If he cares enough to see
that is far beyond me
But I'll try
at least I can say that I tried
I know you wont understand
and never will
how these emotions effect me so deeply
even though you will stay with me still
I want to tell you that
I will always be there for you
I know you would try to help
but that would get in the way
of fixing all these problems
that are going on in my life
I have always told you everything
everything that could be told
I try to be the best I can
but I dont know if I can be any better at this
I have given my all
even went down the list
I will eternally care for you
but will you still care for me??
even when this is all thats left of me?
how I cannot begin to see
even if you were to eventually love me