Cheryl-

Ever had that feeling,
The one where you feel
So much guilt,
Where you just want to cry,
And hug your best friend tight,
Hating yourself for believing such lies?

Ever been on the phone
With one of the most important
People in your life,
Listening to her voice crack,
As she tries hard not to cry,
Knowing you caused it
Because you didn't know the whole story
And overreacted to what you thought you knew,
And then all you really want to do is apologize?

Stared at myself in the mirror
For the longest time since ever,
Looking at the person I hate most in the world.
Me.

Because I've felt that way,
I've been on that phone.
It's only ever happened twice.
But I know it absolutely sucks,
That it's the worst thing ever.
And the second time occurred last night.

Josh is such a retard,
Who's only trying to cover his own ass.
Should have answered when you called to explain,
Shouldn't have hung up when Ross handed me his phone,
Because now I keep apologizing,
And now it's me who feels the pain.

I'm so sorry, Cheryl,
Even though you tell me not to be.
You're my best friend,
You know that, right?
And I'm not gonna let
That snot-nosed kid ruin any of that.
It's him I was angry at, not you, last night.

I didn't mean to act so harsh,
Didn't mean to get so angry.
I just thought I was about to go through
The same shit I dealt with before,
The same betrayal I felt before.
I kept forgetting, the one I'm dealing with is you.

You've been through hell yourself,
Real hell, completely different from everything else.
You wouldn't ever do that kind of thing,
At least not to me because
We're super duper best friends.
And for each other we'd do anything.

I'll put away the frustration:
It's meant for myself anyways.
I'm going to give you a hug next time I see you.
Speaking of which, are we still hanging out Saturday?

Can't believe this happened,
And I'm sorry I jumped to conclusions.
I just hope everything is good now.
I hope we can smile and just
Put this behind us.
So please turn that frown upside down!

And sorry, Friend,
Because that's just what you are.
You're my best friend ever still,
And probably the best one I've had so far.

Sorry this poem sucks,
But I sort of wrote it in a rush.
I even tried to rhyme occasionally,
But that's always hard to do for me.

Thanks for reading this anyways.