a lonely passion

tonight I slumber with my fears surrounding
I sing myself to sleep only to avoid the truth
the truth of what consumes this soul
I fear the silence
I fear the emptiness
I fear being without love
I fear my loneliness

A solvable problem is what I've created
but soon enough it shall be too much
for I cannot find the truth behind the lies
I cannot fix this desolate beginning of the story
the ending will not come as I lay here
with no one to touch
no one to hold on to

Thank you for the struggle you have arizen within
you caused this to happen
you caused my mind to break
a broken heart led to this broken mind
as I fear what you caused
as I fear the loneliness within

break apart from the shallow pools of blood
where there's no one to stop the flow
no one to save me from myself
when I wish nothing but your surrender
I get everything but your romance

Lonely memories overpower
I start to breathe in and out
harder and harder
as I cannot stop
I freak out
I fall apart
I cannot be alone
not without you
not without a hand to hold on to

will you care if I fall away?
will you hear my silent screams?
listen please my dear
for I cry
for I fall
for I fear