Omnipresent Decision

                Angelic voices oh so clear
                Call out to me from somewhere
                Mentioning the needs, the pain, the tears
                Heeding my only intention, too much to bear

I cry and rock and shake
Tears splash reddened cheeks
Agony that's too much to take
Not meant for the faint or weak.

              Actions bidden by one thought
              Bidden by a man, an angel
              Fury and pain hell hath wrought
              Cause for crying, my soul will mangle

I cry and shake and rock
Tears drip in rivers down my cheeks
Agony, fear, emotions you doth mock
Not meant for the helpless and weak.

              Chances taken on angels wings
              Were shattered by one learned thing
              Details omnipresent in the message the demon brings
              'Feel the pain, feel the sting.'

I used to shake and rock and cry
The tears used to flow freely
But then I gave up against the lie
Only then could I begin healing.

              The one thought that bid me
              To do those outrageous things
              No longer controls, now I am free
              And I see unfolding a whole new spring.