I Am Tired

I am tired
of being happy,
Smiley, that's a relief,
because i am lying inside,
Tales i promised to keep.
I am laughing,
sadistic humor,
raging in the blood,
and satire, New beings????
How do i go on,
explaining to a wall,
that i don't really care,
never have before,
and if you asked me truly,
would i just lie all the more????
Tell me you care,
lie right to my face,
i am to the point that i don't really care,
what you tried to hide,
where ever that damn place.
Now go,
go to hell,
and finish what you tried to start,
Satan has some gifts for you,
his minions, they will start.
you,
You,
YOU!
How could you destroy my life,
I begged for mercy,
you ripped out my breath,
my very horrible life,
and as i went to the Grave,
more whole than ever before,
i wished for Dark December to take away the pain,
but it all comes raging back,
Deeper and darker,
not caring who i hurt,
because without you,
life isn't worth the pain,
the death,
the looks of pity,
remorse.