Why did you leave
just walk out the door
i know mommy is a cheat
backstabbing whore
But I was so young
so lost and confused
do you know what happened daddy
from her pain and abuse
It started at five
i was so young
her beatings with anger
from what I thought I had done
I made it to six
met mommy's friend
the more I meet
the more i couldn't defend
I turned seven
mommy passed out
took a sip of her friend
and soon found out
When I was eight
lesson learned
tried to out smart mommy
half my arm got burned
When I hit nine
mommy gave me a gift
Blind im my right eye
told me to be thankful for it
Then there is ten
mommy has bills to pay
she hung out with the friend
I worked, no play
At the age of eleven
I saw my first hospital
stabbed in the back
she said lies that were increditable
twelve my favorite year
I now fought back
got a new home
guess what daddy ...more fear...no slack
13,14,15 painful years
I'll tell ya Dad, no more tears
A daily fight just for my clothes
Foster parents are great
it really shows.
I was just a paycheck
my hate grows and grows
Till one night
I got a gun
I'm out of here
All I did, was run and run
On the streets dad
I'm only sixteen
A new fight for life
I wish you could have seen
Lucky for me at seventeen
Made it threw High School
and dad
I was Home Coming Queen
At eighteen I thought
I would pay mommy a visit
show her who I was
& what she really wasn't
19 oh yeah, wonderful year
A husband of rage
look daddy
Mommy is now here
20 is grand
fighting 2 is great
this is not fair
I soon changed my fate
At 21 i wrote you that letter
dear dad, if you don't hurry
they are gonna kill her
22 I did it
changed my fate
showed them that gun
and walked away
23 you found me
remember that day
let me help you daddy
this is what I needed to say
I know why you left
walked out the door
why mommy is a cheat
backstabbing whore
I know why I got beat
and almost killed
Blind in my eye &
Wounds that wont heal
Yes Daddy I know it all
we are not the same blood
we are nothing
nothing at all.
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Wow knowing you Christina I can tell ya I know this would have been so hard for you to do and reading it I feel I know even better now and the fact you went through this makes me hurt, I went through all that pain beating a father who did not care well my dad tried to kill me twice, The fact you felt this pain and such a beautiful person with a warm heart just makes me mad we never asked for life but they wanted to be parents why if they would not care for us, Lucky I have a mother of gold who soar me through it all and you have someone to now me and I am always here
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Awesome write yet again. I love reading your stuff cuz i know it comes straight from the heart. i'll never know what you went through but, thanks for shedding some light
Shade
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Oh wow.
I'm honestly speechless.
Although, I can relate...
My mom spent night after night;
Drinking and attacking me as well.
I always defended my younger sister of five years.
I pretty much raised my younger sister
Once I hit th eage of 13.
Mom even tried killing me a few times.
Food poisoning, Choking && suffocating while I slept;
Hitting beer bottles over my head && stabbinig me.
I pretty much ran the house except for the bills...
Until I was old enough to get a job.
But even then it was hard as hell.
My step-dad helped out a lot...
He usually comforted my tears
That I refused to cry in front of my Mother && sister.
God, without him, I don't know where I'd be.
Just know, that you're not alone in the world.
People like your younger sister love && adore you.
And we're not afraid to share our own stories with you.
I love you, Sis.
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this will be such a great help
this reaches the wounded heart and the minds messed up and the broken spirits of the world
I am so glad you wrote this
it will help us all try to move on to a better future
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Oh so sad
If this is true I truly feel your pain and know all over this world young people just as yourself has not had a life of a loved child yet you were to busy watching after the parents on drugs and only looking for their own enjoyment . So sad that children dont know they have the loudest voice of all and they are allowed to reach out to all who will luisten and find the love they so deserve. Even foster parents if they are no good then turn them in and move until you find those who knows how to love
I am back down to no applauds right now for I give them away faster than I can get them but read one of mine later and I will see that you get them then .
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