contemplation

As i gaze up to the sky,
i contemplate and ask myself why?
why did i,
let life pass me?
why did i,
feel unhappy?

As i glance up to the cloud,
i contemplate and ask myself how?
how did i,
wind up in the unknown?
how did i,
think i was all grown?

As i intake a breath of air,
i contemplate and ask myself where?
where did i,
turn down the wrong path?
where did i,
invoke gods' wrath?

As i hear the cool wind coo,
i contemplate and ask myself who?
who did i,
hurt beyond healing?
who did i,
scar without feeling?

As i feel the cold breeze cut,
i contemplate and ask myself what?
what did i,
think i was doing?
what did i,
lose from the using?

As i hear reality call "Jenn"
i contemplate and ask myself when?
when will i,
finally feel whole?
when will i,
finally reach my goal?