Can't you see I'm in pain?
I'm fighting and losing
trying all the time
and I'm doing "just fine"
the human spirit is powerful
more powerful than water
that runs in rivulets down my cheeks
carving canyons through my soul
I may walk through events unconscious
unable to respond for fear
fear that it isn't safe
and yet I awaken slowly
to the blossoming beauty of trust
as he helps me to build the bridge
so I can safely cross over
it isn't the atrocities
committed against me
but the horror of living beyond
expecting...
because everything was a lie
well maybe not everything
but I built my life on lies
trusting the hurt that came
would come again
blaming myself for it
so it came
and I fell asleep to it
my self was stolen
life taken away
but life is taken away from us all
in one way or another
so I've learned
you must build the bridge
to your secret garden
even though the storms come
and there are no more flowers
you can still let life back in
wake up and find your self
love yourself
love is
much better than sleeping in
as it rains outside
I'd rather watch storms rage
safely cocooned in blankets
awake and aware
and in love
after this storm
(all storms will end)
I will go out and explore
tasting the air
hearing the birds sing
I wouldn't want to miss out
because I was asleep
my hope deceased
too afraid to get dirty
Author notes
I wrote this for myself as encouragement. I am a survivor of years of child abuse as well as sexual assault. I struggle with the after-effects of it all. However, I feel like it is important to be reminded that even if it seems hopeless, there are still ways to let hope back into your life.
A contest entry
- Hope by Alpha Rats Nest.
600 points, ended May 6, 2008, 21 entries
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Comments
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a good poem, aye even the darkest places we can find a way out of, there must be hope in the heart if we wish to fold ourself into the future's smiles.
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well done I like the final few lines the best.
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This is a strong sentiment..with so much intensity of the thoughts..I love the edges of the piece...thanks for the poetry..well done...
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