cathartic lyrical random expulsion

Would it be a lie if i had to say
that everything we never did
i would miss just as
dearly as the times
we did share

I would
have to
admit that
i never thought
out the way we
ended up falling
so close that night
together and alone
would have aided the
silent exploration of
our self was always
so much more
demanding
than of
each
other

Until the
time i spent
the night after
you asked me to
i never knew that
just lying there
could be so much
more sensual
and open
than the
obvious
alternative

Ever since
we said goodbye
and walked home
together for the first
time i realized you never
should look back and regret
all those times you didn't
spend it's about the time
that looked you in the
eyes and you just
ignored its
existence