My head in the toilet, i hear you words..
Is it really so bad just to purge?
Its better than slitting my wrist that much is true...
Yet then again.. My reasons you,
you the public who laughs and judge,
just because she is 100 pounds of pudge.
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"I'll die to be picture perfect,"
to be just what you want to see,
but secretly i just beg of you,
To want me..For me?
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I hate the feeling, pain and horror fills in me,
my bathroom holds the secrets no one else can see,
Trying so hard to be what you want me to be.
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So again i'll wait to purge away my food,
possible a or two i might loose,
but its not enough it never will be???
It sucks.. Why cant you just love "me"
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Going over in the mirror,
My daily routine,
Looking over every inch,
Then purging away what i do not need,
Scrapping bites off there food,
making up story's when they ask,
but the truth is i cry inside,
when i see that reflecting glass...
If only my bathroom walls could talk,
They woulds weep in pain,
I use to think my body was fine,
naive, never again....
Talk
Smile
Laugh
Lie
Purge
Smile
Wave goodbye....
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Comments
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holy shit this is amazing
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powerfully written and it really shows the conflicts of life an the way that someone with an eating disorder can feel. it just gripped me with conflict and emotion.well done
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Peoples issues with weight get ridiculous and to me beauty is really on the inside as I am partially sighted so looks don't matter much to me and I dated 2 what most people would call 'fat' blokes, but it didn't matter to me... it was about the inner person and the heart. But many people worry about their weight and I do worry about mine, though not to the stage of bulimia.
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wow that was short and simple straight to the point it was amazing!!
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Awwww, this is so so so sad =( Damn all those who laugh and judge!!!!!
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i can relate
ive replaced my cutting with an ed of some sorts.. -
hmmm that is something id never do.
that is stupid....
you know it rots your teeth?
number two if you do that, it just means your lazy.
that you to lazy to exercize....
anyway interesting write -
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umm hunny
you couldnt be more wrong...
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