Old nightmares like familiar memories
steal my breath and leave me spluttering
[heart twittering]
& not in that nice butterfly way;
[in the I-hate-myself-&-I-think-I'm-going-to-be-sick kind of way.]
How naive [hopeful;daft;foolish;ignorant;stupid]of me
to believe you'd left for good.
[This heart isn't yours.
It never was.]
& you can play all the stupid
mind games you want [& make me
cry myself to sleep every night
for the rest of my life]
but there's one thing you simply can't do
no matter how manipulative you are:
you can't make me love you.
I feel sick & short of breath &
[smaller than an insect]
less than a moth [the disappointing butterfly]
because your intimidation tactics
tear.me.down
But I'm not alone
[although the echoes say otherwise]
because the boy who beat you to my heart
is right here to hold me
[share his oxygen - remind me how to breathe]
keep me warm with his hoodie
[& his love]
& there's not a damn thing you can do about it.
[I may be down right now, but you haven't beaten me.
Not by a long fucking shot.]
Author notes
Ehmm...yeah.
2:: Dirty-pretty.
i. Hate note.
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Comments
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How naive [hopeful;daft;foolish;ignorant;stupid]of me "
Raw. Powerful.
"[share his oxygen - remind me how to breathe]
keep me warm with his hoodie
[& his love]"
Beautiful.
Thanks for entering
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Both my exes have torn me down and made me feel worthless and insignificant. My most recent ex, I still have feelings for, but I will NOT let his ways get in the way of mine and Steven's relationship, I just wont. I love him and dont' want him hurting like Karl and James hurt me. Beautifully written, so raw and emotion-filled, love it hon. x
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