Standing here looking out at the ocean seems so strange.
Though I wish I may and I wish with all my might there
are no answers.
If wishes came true, I would wish to just hold your face
in mine hands for one more time.
This ocean of tears can never empty out and if it did
new tears would only fill it again.
How I have longed to just let the tears drown me
but I know that would only take the last memory from me.
So here I stand wishing that the crashing waves sing
your song and we could feel the sands of time slip by.
But for now my wishes have not come true and so I stand
here gazing at the horizon while loving you.
But almost hating you because you are gone.
The ocean only gathers more water from mine eyes.
Author notes
So many times a person who has loved and lost find themselves either standing in front of a ocean scene or they go on a retreat. Sometimes it seems that the tears never stop. This is just one of my more deeper moments. Judy Pace Tharpe Lloyd.
Have you ever had that feeling that you loved someone deeply but almost hated them because they were gone?
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Judy, I totally empathsize with you. I spent way too many years by the shore, ruing a man my mother forbade me to marry, only to find out years later, that he was not the man I thought he was. You , on the other hand, have lost someone you truly loved. Many of us find peace of mind just watching the ocean waves, and listening to the gulls. I'm sorry his memory makes you cry.
You ask a question. "HAve you ever had that feeling that you loved someone deeply but almost hated them because they were gone?"
My mother was very cruel to me. I cared for her as she was dying. I often visit the mausoleum where she is buried. BUT, I hate her because I never got to tell her that she hurt me deeply and I did not deserve that! I kept trying, by acing school, doing volunteer work, raising three successful sons, and all she did was to tell me I was doing everything all wrong. My flunkie sister got all of the love.
Your poem brings back memories of summers at the Jersey shore, when my mother would rent a home there, and it was then I fell in love with the sea. It is the only thing that brings me solace when I am down. You words had a very deep effect on me. Bless you for your pen and best wishes.
Love, Shana
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maybe we go to the ocean because that is where we were born as a race, walking from the waters to stand up straight on land so when we feel sad we go to the calming ripples for comfort
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Another Excellent write
Has me worried Judy.
Everything OK?
Jim
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loved it..just luscious to read
she writes as an old soul, do you hear it in her voice,
I really like this poet, much she has Oceans in her soul to
share!
well done poetess, well done!
ears/Seattle
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loved this
This ocean of tears can never empty out and if it did
new tears would only fill it again.
this was the most powerful sentence in the whole piece. Yes I have loved so hard that I am still feeling the pain 2 years later... I don't hate him.. but I do wish to hold him one last time and make last for all eternity. Great piece, good luck in the contest.
Yvonne
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the wishing
And the hoping that they, the love of your life will come back release by the vast powers of the Ocean. Such a wish indded and then the tears
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