i died for him

I died for you.
What happened?
And why did I do that?
Well it's a shocking story,
but I shall tell you.

He said that we'd be together.
But then he went and messed his life up,
and got into things he couldn't take back,
and said things he shouldn't have.

He made enemies,
when he should have been with me.
He said that he was busy with his job,
but he was actually busy with dealing drugs.

And one day when we were actually together,
and i thought that there's nothing better.
I was just saying there's nothing that could go wrong.
I thought we had a good time,
but something else was on his mind,
I could tell.

He didn't respond right after my questions,
and he seemed to be thinking about something
that was bothering him.
He didn't act like he had a good time,
and when it was time to say good-bye
there was no hug or kiss,
he just said well that's it,
i'll see you tomorrow.

The next day finally comes,
and no phone call
and not one email.
I tried calling but got only a recorded voice.
and I start to worry.
And when things can't get any worse,
it just so happens to go down that road.

He finally calls,
he sounds terrified
And I ask what's wrong.
He says that i need to come downtown,
to that old factory,
for a little while.
I ask why,and he says that he's in trouble
and I need to get here now.

I am terrified and worried,
and when I finally arrive,
I see him..on his knees....
With a gun to his head...
And I am confused and ask what's going on.
He says that they're going to kill him,
unless they get what they want.

The people said that they wanted to kill,
cause they wanted revenge for what he did..
They said that he killed one of theirs..
And that someone must pay.

I asked him if that was true..
and he said it was.
I bust out into tears,
having no idea of what to do,
and not wanting to lose him.
I ask that there must be another way.
They say that there is,
and say that you can switch with him,
and die for what he did.

I sit for a while,
and think it over.
And on my knees and still weeping,
I say i'll do it.
They give a smile
and tie me up the same as him,
jerk me up and sit me towards his direction,
and all the while he just watches.

No tears and no words of regret.
Still crying I say that I love him.
He only looks at me and says i'm sorry,
I never really loved you,
I just played you.
You were my personal dummy.
Just here for my own game.
And now you are taking the blame..
And bullet to your head..
For something i did
and for someone
who didn't even care about you.

Stunned at what was said,
I just weep more and wish i'd never cared,
never looked into his eyes,
never talked back when he spoke to me,
and never ever said
that I loved him back.

And then I stop,
and yell out in plain anger.
I was the only one
who was really a friend to you,
I was the only one w
ho cared and loved you,
I was the one
who was always there,
and I am the one
who said that i'd be there.

I didn't lie,
cause i'm here right now,
and was all those other times.
But now i can't believe how foolish i was,
to have believed in someone so low,
and so stupid.
I can't believe i fell so hard for you.
And you weren't even there
to give a helping hand.
You was just another player,
and i lost the game.

And that was all that was said,
cause then the gun went off..
And everything went red.....
And then everything went black
and nothing more.

.....
I died for him,
I tried my hardest for him
and i gave my heart to him.
I should have known better,
than to have given my all to just him.
the only things he brought upon me,
was hurt and pain,
and even the end of everything.
He tore my heart
into tiny bits of nothing,
never being able to repair itself.

I feel so foolish now,
but what is done is done,
and my life is already gone
and it is irreplaceable.
I'm now up upon in the heavens,
and I look down upon him.
I wish each and everyday day,
that someone whould end him
and take his life from
his dark,clutching hands.

So he'd die,
and be punished for what he did to me.
But we won't meet up here,
cause he'll be way down below,
in the burning depts of hell.
Where his body will forever
be burned to ruble and nothing more,
and he'll never be forgiven.
And he'll never forget
that i had died for him..
And he is where he is
because of that reason...