Sweet Yet Surreal (...a love letter)

My Love,

    When I first saw you sitting, wondering, and maybe thinking about some things. I first noticed them lovely eyes so bright yet so sad looking. I wanted to know what made them eyes beautiful but looking so blue. I wanted to stare, but I was afraid, so I just walked away keeping the image of your sad but lovely eyes in my heart.
    Since then I would wait for you to pass by, I would stare at you from afar, for I wanted to know the mystery behind those sad eyes. None could tell me about the story them eyes had witnessed. I wanted to come close to you to make you smile. That was the only thing I wanted to do for you… Until one day, I saw you sitting alone in the same place where I first laid my eyes on you, with the same look, with the same lonely eyes, I couldn’t take it anymore. So I sent you something that I thought could make you at least smile… It was the beginning of something different for you.
    Days and weeks and months… slowly, sweetly I learned to know your ways, your eyes never loose
Its sadness but I know you gained a friend. I wasn’t physically there for you at all times but I know I was emotionally there to keep you smiling ( I wonder if I really made you smile ). But my heart wanted more. More of you, more of your ways, more…
    Time came when I told my self you need me to twist your sad, sad thoughts into something different. I acted like an Angel following the person I was assigned to take care of. I wanted you to LOVE me, to open up more and to learn how to TRUST me. And I told my self you will in no time… And funny because you did, I caged that love with my wings to nurture it, to make it grow, and to keep it safe… But, something made it impossible to grow the way I wanted it to grow…
    I shed tears, and you did too. You lost your trust even more and grew in fear and sadness. Your heart grew not recognizing the love we tried to nurture. But I kept my head up, wiped my tears, swallowed my pride, and stood still besides you. I held on to you even tighter, trying to save what ever I can save. But is there something to be saved?
    I left for I wanted you to clear your mind, to know what is really that you want. I wanted you to miss me and realize my existence… But I think I made a wrong step, for I came back only to find out that there’s nothing left there for me. Slowly, inch by inch, little by little situation pulled you away from me, I still wanted to hold on. But is there something left there for me to hold on to?
    You changed… What I will do is painful for me, I don’t know if it’s painful for you too but I think it’s the right thing to do. I rather see you freely go than to force you, than to cage you in my arms knowing that the person doesn’t want to stay besides me. I rather open up my hands and let my angel fly, fly away from me… I want you to do that, even though I know at the back of my mind I’m going to miss the person who once made me whole, the person who once taught me how to love, the person I dearly love…
    I want you to find your way, I want you to grow, and I want you to see what’s there for you…
I LOVE YOU, and will always LOVE YOU…
Will never regret that I once loved the person with the saddest eyes but yet lovely looking one…

Love loving you…