Hollow

the vacancy of what was once me twists and changes
changes into something unexplainable 
something that you shiver at the thought of
you do not hear my silent pleas nor do you care
i pretend everyday i've moved on
when the truth is just beyond the surface
but you have to desire to see
you don't bother to look
you don't even realize
how easily that surface could be pierced
What seems to you my perfection
my strength
my courage
is nothing more than
a mask its eyes as hollow as my soul
you looked for depth in me
but there was none to be found
and now i care not what you see in me
i have for too long hid myself
with masks of darkness
tring too hard
to fill the hollow of my soul
you never saw the real me
you saw what i let you see
and you were decieved
you will never know
For i don't tell you this
you need not understand my silence
you need not understand that i never changed
i tried to let you see the real me
and you did as i had expected you would
left me empty as ever
for this reason i have given everything
for this reason i have lost all innocense
and now i do not care for
why should i bother
trying too hard
to be what i never can
trying to hard to be everything you thought i was.