to My Mother

To my mother who gave me life and left me to live it. 
You took me from where it was safe and brought me into a world I should never have been brought into; that no child should have ever been brought into. 
You allowed me to be hurt over and over again
When I needed you the most you ignored me
You treated me like a step child
You never acknowledged me
I was your babysitter and the rug you walked on
You say I was a mistake but you made the mistake. 
Why couldn't you just leave me alone and moved on with your real life? 
Why was I punished for it?
What did I do to deserve this?
Everyday I feel like I was a mistake and there isn't a day that goes by that you make sure I know it. 
I love you mom so much why can't you do the same, why is it so hard to love me, to care about me
Is there something wrong with me or is it because I remind you of the mistake you made
I'm sorry
I'm sorry for being the mistake
I'm sorry for being a constant reminder of the mistakes you made
I'm sorry for loving you mom but I can't help it I do love you
I don't ask for anything but to feel like you daughter instead of a mistake
I am tired of making excuses for my life. 
The only excuse is that my mother made a mistake and that mistake was me and I will never go away!!