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Happy To Be Me

Spirits soar through the sky
Dreams passing Idly by
No one who passes seems to care
That I'm crying in despair

My heart shatters into small portions
My face all wet with distortions
My hair let down in the way
Hoping it will muffle what I say

Its not like I can love again
Though I did, I don’t remember when
It was in the past, sometime ago
Maybe one day my true smile will show

I don't know what it means to be happy
Every chance I might get just passes by me
So in my despair and pain I'm left alone
No more love or passion will I be shown

Distanced in mind from the crowd that gathers about
Not realizing that I began to scream and shout
Gazing upon my dampened face with worried eyes
Everyone thats circled I began to despise

Why would they gaze at my torment
Or wonder why my time was badly spent
Its not like they cared until long after
Because all I ever heard was mocking laughter

But why should they care now, after its all done
Its happened and where’s the sun
Its hidden behind the dark clouds in the sky
Through which, I once loved to fly

The stars that shimmer at night
Are no longer visible to my sight
The rain has put a damper on my day
Because its only in my way

Still gathered wondering why I cry
But disappointed when every possibility I deny
I wont tell anyone what it is that ails me
See, cause even if they knew they’d never really see

No more allowing anyone to get close to my heart
For I know all they would do is rip it apart
So I'm going to ignore everyone and more
Maybe then I can be happy just like before

Though I still have my doubt
I guess all I can do is wait to find out
Hopefully my theory is correct, and Im okay
Only then can I once again see the light of day

So on with my healing process
No more pain will I suppress
Its finally gone, This pain and agony
I'm finally free to show the real me.

Author notes

This piece is about my ex and all the pain he put me through and how I hid that pain from the people around and even though they could tell there was something wrong they didnt dare to ask until they saw me alone amd crying...

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  • emotina
    May 20, 2008
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    nice work


  • Blooming Poet
    May 19, 2008

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    Relationships can create large amounts of pain when they end. Its a good thing though that you are getting it out and on paper


  • lilmayra
    May 8, 2008

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    Amazing

    No words can explain how deeply this touched me. I have been hurt like this before and I know exactly how it feels to not allow anyone else close to you or your heart. This is a wonderful picture of such a painful situation. This absolutely brought tears to my eyes. Guard your heart but always remember that someday there will be that one person that will treat it right.


  • James R
    April 15, 2008

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    This was Awesome one of the best writes I have read in a long time, you pour your heart out for people let them know how you feel inside, I am the same when I write, I am so sorry this was about such a sad topic as an X but hey keep ya head up a move on things to become easier, just keep on writing amazing stuff like this vent out how you feel and it seems to help and also you give us on AP a treat of reading it. All the best my friend.


    • Shadow Stalker
      April 18, 2008
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      Thank You

      Im surprised you really think that about my poem. I didnt think it was that good. I was really broken up about it and even though it still hurts sometimes Im doing so much better. Thank you again. Feel free to message me if you'd like.

      ~Kisses & Roses~

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