Update- My life is whole again.

I don’t what I’m supposed to do anymore. I’m lost, I need guidance. Almost everyone in my life that I ever trusted has broken that bond at some point or another, and the funny thing is I continue to let them do it. Its hard, but I don’t know how to stop it. My “best friend” stabbed me in the back because of some guy, and to be honest, it wasn’t that big of a deal. My mom never regained my trust after she started using. My dad hasn’t had my trust since I was 4 years old. No one at my school is trustworthy, they are all just out for a little drama. And the people in my “group” are not competent enough to understand my situation. So I’m fed up, its bogus. The only person in the world that I trust is on here. It doesn’t really matter who it is, all that matters is that they have never broken my trust, have always been there for me, and I hope that they will continue to be there for me as I continue down this path. I’m choosing to move when I turn 18. it doesn’t matter where, just that I am getting out of this town, and this state for that matter. I’m doing it for me as well as for the better of the people around me. They have had to deal with me for the past 17 and years, I think its time to give them a break. The only person that I’ve told that I’m moving (here, of course) is my ex. She is the one person here that I can go to, and trust that she won’t make a big deal of it. She thinks it’s a good idea that I’m getting out of this town too. I hope I’m not making a mistake by doing this, and I hope that everything will work out right. I have actually thought about this a lot, and I am going to finish high school, then find a job, and maybe later on, when I have the money, time and ambition, I will probably go to college(not pushing that right now though). I will make this work, I don’t exactly know how, but I will. Not many people could put this thought into my head, but I think i might actually be happy. I haven’t really truly been happy ever. This is going to be my life, my rules. No one is going to say “you cant do this, or you cant think that” I am going to be my own person for the first time. I have never had the “guts’ enough to stand up for myself, and now its all working out. Timing, that’s all it is, good timing. I always thought that I would just end up staying in La Crosse my entire life, working some off the wall job, but no, its all going to change. And I absolutely can’t wait. Okay I think that I finally am done ranting.

But a final word, don’t judge others until you take the time to know them. And stereotyping is exactly the reason that I found this place, but I learned that there a lot of awesome people here. But you know there are those few who just cant shut their mouths. Anyway, I’m done now.