My Paradox

So you want to hear my fears
That is story filled with madness
If I told you I had lived forever
Would you still ask what terrorizes me?
What if it is to horrible to say?

I have walked through fire
And I was burned
I have dove into deep water
Where I very nearly drowned
I have fought a man with a gun
And my life nearly ended
I have lost my mind
And my world nearly ended
I have survived every challenge
Defeated all those who rise to me
I lived without a home
And yet I remain unafraid

So you are still curious now
My madness unfolds slowly aroun you
If I told you I was invincible
Would you beleive my fears at all?
What if I am not worth your attention?

I have held a dying girl in my arms
And felt the warmth seep from her
I have spoken to someone without hope
And felt the shock of the gun that took her life
I have known a woman who drowned at sea
In the boat that we built together
I have listened to the final words
Of a friend who was taken by cancer

I will tell you know I suppose
I am invincible, I may live forever
For you see, everything that challenges me
Always fails, nothing has proven stronger
But I am a constant failure to those in my heart

An angel in a car wreak who I didn't reach in time
A lonely soul who I failed to love enough
A simple boat that couldn't withstand the ocean
A man who needed me, but I failed to support

And today I was not attractive enough
To draw her eyes in desire,
I wasn't man enough to hold her attention
So she went to look somewhere else

When will I stop failing?