A secret club

upon looking into your eyes,
my heart welled up with tears
and my soul disfigured itself into
the apitamy of sorrow,
that only then reduces to the
inviting pain;
the same feeling that sweeps
across your eyes in a held glance

holding tightly on to something,

cringing the inside of my mouth

  to stop the form of tears

a strength only mastered over time

not fully comprehending the words

sliding out of your mouth

yearning deeply to understand..

to make everything ok

 the suffering hurts only worse

when you tell me i love you

  for..no one else will ever have knowledge

of a love greater than anything this world

 has ever come to known or develop

only you

and i

know of this love

of this truth,

 i cannot cry enough

 for everyone in the world

 minus 2

 that does not,

 will not,

 ever understand this.

and Yet...part of me,

 doesn't care.

this love, it is ours, yours and mine

  shared only by our bonds,

  by our cling to each other

  only does this love exist

  between you and I...