Losses by numbers what do they mean are they an invitation to a blossoming?
First the TV, internet, phone, the death of my mother, my marriage, I'm alone.
Bills in the mail, can't afford my pills, blood from a turnip, tears on the bills.
The seeds have been planted, didn't choose this path, victim of abuse, porn, self wrath. Here I stand a woman with no keys, in able to provide for my own daily needs. Pain in my body sets dreams to fire, I'm all I have now I'm more than tired. Survival's for the fittest, it's my worst fear, a fibromyalgia body refuses to hear. Should I toil to weed and rend to sow, leave it to die, will God take control?
I'm far to old for this surely he sees, my heart and my body is full of dis-ease.
I close my swollen eyes to envision a day when the floor I stand on won't give way. Here in the emptiness a restless wind blows, over a flowering colorless rose.Each petal a lifeless storm of it's own, a link to the other a nearing to home. I'm scaling bottom it's so very dark, a rose finds the light with the seeds of it's heart. It's just one more night and one more day, my mind doesn't care but you tell me to pray. Father should I hold on or should I let go, I can't hear the answers why are you so slow. I fall to the floor, "God I want to obey" and in this new stillness I hear you say.
Sit still, let it die, save it no more, this new separation has come to restore.
Your colorless petals yourself you have grown, my child this is why you feel so alone. What seems the end of things you now know, are things that must die for my will to be shown. When pain and loneliness claw at your soul, read, write and pray, your petals will grow. I've always intended what is best for you, sometimes the bottom is the only way through. Keep hold of my thoughts, it's what you must do, I have a million colored roses for you. Push away self hate, let my family come to mend, you'll learn to start over, change is not the end. Let go, let God, it's such a cliche', but today I heard my savior after I prayed.
Author notes
A bit over rhymed but inspired by prayer.
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Powerful, poignant poem. I like the rhyme and appreciate all the personal cares you are able to fit into this write. The final verse is uplifting, and I pray you are able to hold onto that during this difficult time in your journey.
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Absolutely beautiful. You're right: "Let go and let God" is a sort of cliche. But it rings so true that it's definitely worth repeating. We really need to abolish our will, so that we can live the way the Lord wants us to.
His strength is made perfect in weakness, so...
LET GO AND LET GOD!
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Wonderful
This is so courageous. I love how the story comes full circle. Starts out with no hope, full of despair and then the journey to enlightenment. Very encouraging and inspiring. In life everyone faces challenges but some more than others. I have always been one that has "one of those lives." We all think our problems are so bad until we meet someone that has moccasins we would never wish to walk in. The key is to have faith. Faith is a powerful and essential part of success in life, no matter what you're "higher power" is. Thank you. Wonderfully penned!
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real nice
this is real nice i held onto every word. in parts of it i thought of my mother who's husband has passed on and she feels alone . and with bills.she has pain from a leg operation.so alot of this sounded like moms situation.in mine it would be disease and wishing it away.how i wish i could be a new rose.
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I love the flow. The sincerity and the sadness work so well together and forms almost a pleading, yet painful cry that is heartwrenching. This really draws a person in and holds their attention. Nice Job!
~S~G~
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It is how you feel.
It is how you feel and when you feel this, the piece is okay. I am a person who likes openess and honesty. Because when we try to sneak in that which isn't,it becomes transparent to others. A very real thought provoking write.
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This is so sad, yet so full of hope. Don't let go. You have the answers in your heart, you have heard God's message and he is holding your hand. Don't let go.
I love your poem, I am sure it is going to do well wherever it is placed and it will help others too.
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Sweet :)
Inspirational
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