happiness i'll pretend

and i get cold when i think of her
and how she's what you like.
how much competition she poses.
how she doesn't have to fight
for your attention,
though, neither do i,
but i want to be the only one
shining in your eyes.

I know i am not perfect.
Hell, i'm nowhere near.
I don't have anything impressive,
Only what you see here.
I know that I am selfish,
I know I'm only "cute",
Sometimes when i'm nervous,
I tend to go mute.
My skin isn't flawless,
My eyes are only brown,
I smile way to much,
I'm ugly when i frown.
I fuck up everything i do,
I can never get it right,
I'm like an atom bomb
explosions are in sight.

She's got to be much better,
And my hate burns for that.
I hate she's so damn skinny.
I hate that i'm kinda fat.
I hate how pretty she is
i hate she's partied with you
I hate that you considered
Dating her, too.
I hate how sick she makes me
I hate how much you like her.
How far ahead of me she is
I'm not exactly sure.
All i know is that
i hate you guys are friends,
But i'll suck it up and deal,
A happiness i'll pretend
To make you happy.
Cause i love to see you smile.
So if pretending is all that's nessicary,
Baby, i can go for miles.