Fallen Angel

Fallen deep into hell
My thoughts are scrambled,
something caught me and won't let me go!
I know I must leave
this place behind me,
but this emnity wont release me!
Holding on tight,
grasping for breath,
I don't think I'll ever
finally rest,
I know this will hurt
but my heart is already torn,
this place I must stay
and be re-born,
If I were to go back
I would die again,
being here with my pack
gives me undying friends.
If I were to leave
and go back to him,
my soul would never live on
but would stay here with my kin.
These demons inside of me, around me, and with me,
are all my own.
I cannot part with them for they are my home.
My wings are desperate for flight
but they must not,
cannot,
ever fly again.
I know this place would let me
But my heart and soul has too much pain. 
Nothing is worth it
not anymore.
My wings are broken, battered and sore.
I will stay here with them forever
regretting my past and making myself better.