Quiet Division

I'm alone...
no one sees
it's been ninety-six months
not such a bad place they say
only dust bunnies
reheated dreams
my inner child holds tightly
sipping on chocolate quick sand

Void in all directions
emotions of delusion
his lips cold as his breath
a walk to the tv
the frig
then the bed
not even dreams in his head
he doesn't know he's dead

Ceaseless pleas under the rug
my poems in the trash
his words split my world
his negligence he forgets
it's icy where I sleep
trust laid waste
my skin grazes skin
for a moment pain ends

His wordless world
stronger than my leading
he needs no human
blue laser eyes
the fools are fooled
the play hidden
the audience is my soul
quiet victim

Marriage of division
branches of numb
I beg him not to water it
no river boat
greeting loves other side
no family waiting
no escape ticket to ride
I'm alone...

Author notes

written in five minutes off the hip. Yeah I know stuff like this is not fun to read but what is the use of true writing if we don't write what we live and what we know.

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Nicada
April 11, 2008

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Wow. I feel your aloneness all throughout this writing and I can relate so much to this. Very beautifully stated on what you are going through. "He doesn't know he's dead." Unfortunately, this I can very much empathize with you on. Great write!
nikkia
April 11, 2008

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this is so very honest and gives me a great sense of the feelings you have. also the imagery was so vivid and the word choice was excellent. i appreciate you sharing this entry with me and good luck in the contest.
Jokerman
April 11, 2008

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painfully beautiful
this is so full 0f emotion.raw honest writing.so many wonderful lines; blue laser eyes; his wordless world.sounds like your trapped in a horrible situation there.things can turn around again, your poems and your soul are far too good to be thrown in the trash.