Unforgivable Crime

I always believed falling in love was my worst crime,
Now I fear that was the least of them.
Acting as a woman yet only a child,
I ignored all the signs & laid with him still.

Soon all I adored began to crumble,
As I realized the danger I was truly in.
He left me with bruises for all to see,
Still I craved his love for I never had felt.

Too late by the time the light could be seen,
Your life filled my body & clung to my womb.
I was in love you from the very start,
A precious gift I felt with each breath.

At first I was scared & very unsure,
He couldn’t hate you, a part of him?
You couldn’t remain a secret for long,
I faced his wrath as his anger rained down.

You were made out of my carelessness,
Please believe I prayed for our souls.
I tried to be strong when I told him no,
Again as he stalked & beat me down.

Wishing so many things could be different,
The day still came when I made my choice.
I prayed to a God I wasn’t certain existed,
To help you on your journey home.

At night I still dream of you in my arms,
Left only with heartache come the morning sun.
I will always shed a tear over my empty arms,
As I wait to atone for my unforgivable crime.

- Jennifer S. -