Longing

Jokingly
You said to me
One time
"How will we make it through school?
We can't make it three days without sex."

You know
That may be true
But it isn't why I'll miss you
Isn't why I miss you now
After barely a day since I saw you last.

The thing I miss the most
Of you
Is when I look at you
And you look back at me
And your eyes brighten up
And you smile.

You smile at me
For me
Because of me
And then I know you love me
And it feels so good to know it
And I don't know how to show it
So I'm writing it down
With long-lost thoughts
And whatever words I have found.

I'm thinking of you tonight
Like I do every night
I should be asleep
Yet through my silent house I creep
My mind wandering
Followed by my feet
Searching for something unknown
To distract a heartfelt longing
As I write alone.

Isn't it strange
How such a beautiful thing
As love
Can backfire?
But it does.

It does because
It makes you feel
Like nothing else matters
Nothing else does
That's for sure.

The problem
Of course
Is that when nothing else matters
And you're all alone
You ache.

So on I ramble
And on I type, and think, and write
Because the thoughts
And the words
And the soft white light
Keep me company
While you can't
As they always have
Late at night.

And time continues on
It's slipping through my fingers
I've written for an hour
Though you'd never know it looking
Distracted as I've been
As always
By you
So now I'll come and see you
In a merry dream
Until tomorrow
When it all starts over
Yet again.

Sometimes I wish
Time would slip through my fingers
Just a little faster
Just until the night
That I don't have to go to sleep
To see you smile at me.

I love you
Forever
Katie.