Killing Me Without A Thought

It sends a shiver
and I respond with a flinch,
the night air, keeping me quiet.

The flinch leaps to my lips-

"Ah uhm anuh-
                    Ugh.."

They struggle, but stop
something sapping, sinking, sucking.
It defeats the flinch without thought.

Nothing.

It seeps in through the cracks,
oozing into the back of my skull,
undetered by crusted ruby stained flesh.

Nothing.

Inside, it crawls in my brain.
Studying thoughts, memmories, and feelings,
but as it moves they start to fade.

Haze...

Suddenly nothing matters
and the scars on my face don’t hurt
and the blood in my ears doesn’t itch.

My milky eyes can’t see
the ways these cuts corrupt me,
but with sickening pain I start to feel.

“Aaaaaaaaaaagrrrrh!”

The hate is drowning out my fears
and sulfur engulfs your biting words,
the nothingness is killing me, slowly, sharply, cleanly...

...And I’ll die before you can touch me.