[ Lying awake once more, thinking about that one night not long ago, ]

Lying awake once more, thinking about that one night not long ago,
We danced and shared a few laughs and thoughts, like friends normally do
Now I see once more why I liked you.


              Seeing isn't believing, believing isn't seeing when I have you
Having you again after what shouldn't have been, I am happy
What shouldn't be again will be...


              I tell you how you make me feel,
You choke on words to say, first time feelings aren't so easy for you
One thing I don't like about you but do; shyness


Many days, many months on our separate ways,
I started believing hate toward you, hate of distance
I don't want to lose a close friend, I felt like I needed her and not you


Guilt and regret are strong emotions, but two different ones.
Sure I felt guilty about being with you and not her anymore,
Sure I regret making that decision, but you taught me valuable things; love


                All our time spent together, so many wonderful and joyful memories,
I relived over and over and over again until I got to where I am now...
Nothing can ever be the same with us, feelings change as does time...


                I can't be the same with you as your were with me,
So much that you do not know how or what, what I experienced with her...
Not fair to you, you aren't like her and her ways with mine...


You have many qualities I like and want; your experience to my inexperience
You are different then her, your personality I find more attractive
I am more like you than I am like her...and I am sorry to say I cannot be with her..

When I want you more because of your experience to her inexperience and mine...