Getting Through

You ruined my life
with every single word said
you didn't want me to be the same
but in that instant you didn't realize
that i just wanted to be accepted
i want people to see
the good things about my life
but you didn't so now ill take it
ill take my life because its not worthing having
if you cant have at least one thing you want
i lost my family
i lost my world
my  life was ever so changing at someones Else's will
from foster to foster did i go
till finally one didn't abuse
i came here to this town with one thought in my mind
i just want someone to love me
and to love right
i just need someone to be there
but no on was in sight
you hurt me so bad
you never used your eyes
if you would have
you could have come to find
my life so horrible traced without my consent
all i wanted was an angel to be sent
i wanted my life to change
i want to change, too
i need another life
where things can be ever so true
i thought about it plenty of times
but you made me make up my mind
you ruined my life
so i went home and grabbed that knife
i wrote my letter like everyone suicider does
i wrote it with every single one of my goodbyes
but i didn't have anyone worth saying it too
so i only wrote three lines
i stuck that knife straight in my heart
and there i died
as i lay there dying,
i didn't feel a thing
it was as if i was watching from the other side
no one ever tried to stop it
my "parents" didn't even notice the signs
they didn't really loved me
they were only in it for the money they could find
I'm watching life after me
and nothings changed
except one miner detail
and thats the person who's life is being ruined
they didn't care for me, or my feelings
they notice my death and they took in
but not even one day later did they wait to find
another poor pathetic person to waste upon there time
their ruining life as we know it
giving it the wrong name
I'll follow along this girl
and show her what she is doing to the world
i haunted her day and night
and just as if i was alive
she ignored the signs of me
and went on to find
shed see reality real so
shed be the next to go crazy in the mind
and she finally figured out went else there is to find
she realized all the people she hurt, how she made them cry
she realized then, shes next in line
there's someone out there ruining her life now
shes getting what she deserves
but really she doesn't deserve it
i wish i really could stop this
she doesn't deserve to lose her life
you never really should
this all because of something she did
just because she could
she messed with the wrong person
i watch it all happen after my life
i watch her go through
the same things my life possessed
she cried every night, just like me
she went to school dying in side, just like me
she's turned into the one person she never thought she could
and now no matter how much she doesn't want to admit it
I'm her only friend shes got
shes talks to me
and I'm pulling her through
i wish i had had someone there to see
and tell me i can make it
but I'm helping her along the way
making hate in this world go away
one person at a time, ill walk them through the pain
I'll teach them no matter what happens, there's always something to gain