Killing The Dove (prewrite)

I swing by the mountain side
Making my decision
I wonder if your there to catch me
I wonder if your even there to see

I swing by the mountain side
In my black dress
Everything everyone hated me for
The thing you liked best

I swing by the mountain side
And remember how you hurt me
Swinging, just swinging....
Hoping you can see

I swing by the mountain side
I swing here for you
Falling over just so you can see
That you lied, and I was being true

I swing by the mountain side
Dropping a million tears
They fall straight down
With every single one of my fears

I swing by the mountain side
Without showing one ounce of fear
You hurt me so badly
I'm going to end it here

I swing by the mountain side
With everyone yelling at me
I decide its time to show
That I'm serious about what they see

I swing by the mountain side
With complete intentions of falling
Falling, falling
While within me, I hear my true self calling

I swing by the mountain side
I lay cold on a floor trembling
On the inside

I swing by the mountain side
Ive gone completing insane
I don't want to lose anything more
I have nothing to gain

I swing by the mountain side
I think my decision through
Deciding everyone has there time to end
And this is end of me and you

I swing by the mountain side
No more No more
I have fallen over board
Dead as i hit the floor

I lay on this ground
Beneath your feet
You look down to me
Knowing me as someone so sweet

You probably can't believe I came through
Can't believe I did it
But thats your problem, never believing whats true

The paramedics are here
They roll me over
And in your mind, you only have one fear

You cant believe what they said
Can't believe you saw me fall dead

They take the note addressed to you
Call out your name
It's finally proven true

You read it over and over in your mind
You read it out loud
The truth is what is here to find

You killed me
You killed me in you mind
Everyone hears, and in your tears, they finally see

That what i was talking about
Wasn't really a lie
I really was trying just to get out

You go home, and nothing is what it seems
You go home, and decide you'll have better dreams

A week later and your here at my funeral
You look into my eyes and say
"Dear Nicole,
I'm sorry I hurt you
I'm sorry I wasn't true
I'm sorry I didn't see
The real love you felt for me
I can't take it back
but I'll work real hard
And turn my heart to red from black
I'll turn on the lights
And stop walking in the dark
I'll look back on you memory and there I'll probably find
everything I did to you, every time I left a bad mark
I know I can't change that fact that you are dead
I know I can't change every lie I said
but I'll live as a better person for you
Never lying again, only being true
And this is the lesson thats shouldn't go unheard
You should never lie, never use things against each other
Only using the right words
To say what you mean
And only what you mean
Only showing what is meant to be seen
I learned this lesson the hard way
But I'll teach someone, the easy way some day
But for now my dear
I'll have to end it here"

You went home
Meaning every word coming from your mouth

You went home
and grabbed the knife
You sat in your room crying over me
I didn't deserve to lose my life

I shouldn't of died like that
So there he sat
He wrote his letter of goodbyes
And stuck his knife in his heart
And there he dies

Two people gone for something so good
They didn't deserve to lose their life
You never really should

Inside each of the notes
They said goodbye
Gave their reasons
For why they should die
Only one reason
Given by both
They said they died for love
A two-sided oath

They told everyone to dig their grave
And dig it deep
They said never forget
Save the memory of me
And always look deep inside someone to see
That not everything is true
Even if it looks that way on the outside to you
I'm here to show for this
I loved him till the very last kiss
I never loved her even during the first kiss

Suicide for love
The most horrible thing
Killing, yes killing that little white dove
No one deserves,
And yes I say no one,
To have a reason to kill
No matter what
Whether it be jumping from life
Or striking it away with the biggest knife

The only thing they need to know
The only thing they learned to know
Was is love true or is it not
Even for those, who for years have fought
Is it false, is love false
Only the few who know it truly
Know it as a loss
They know it as a true dread
But their words for it, we can not know
Because sadly they are dead
But I'm sure that there are other ways to learn of love
We can teach them to each other, and bring back to life that little dove