the journal entry of a hurt girl...

i loved him,
and i lost him.

i held him,
and he walked away,

i kissed him,
and he chose another...

i dont understand what happened,
i dont understand why it happened,
i dont understand how it happened...

so i lay here now, wondering,
had i done something wrong?
had i simply lost his heart?
or had fate decided,
it just wasnt meant to be?

the stars are sparkling beautifully tonight....

is he looking at the same stars?
is he watching the moon?
or do the clouds have his attention?

did i ever have his attention?
or was i just a toy?
did he love me?
did he need me?

or did he want me?

im lost now, sad and quiet, simply thinking of our happy times,
and wondering what went wrong...
meybe nothing went wrong...
meybe the fates were right.

i loved him,
but meybe theres someone out there better for me...

i dont know...

im going to cry,
and im going to be sad.
but im going to grow
and be stronger from this...

ill be sad.
and ill cry.
but im going to remember him...

ill cry and be sad,
and i may find someone better for me...
but he will always,
always,
hold an important place
in my heart...

and i can only hope,

i hold one in his...