Mama knows best
Not anymore
Lungs heaving in her chest
As she slams the front door
Her anger she expressed
While my trust hits the floor
I'm no longer her tiny girl
With hurtful words spoken
My thoughts whirl
Our love has been broken
I'm just the reason for her pain
Why must she yell
Neither of us gain
From this ongoing hell
Im trying to survive
Breathing is extremely hard
Why must she punish me for being alive
My trust and security is scarred
Why do we do this every night
Fighting and screaming
I know this isnt right
Letting go
I've done this all before
Im hoping she does know
That I surrender in this war
I'm done trying to explain
Why its hard for me to live
These illnesses in my brain
Force my heart to be a siv
I'm only a child
Being the best I can be
Why are my relationships so wild
Why cant she just see
That Im only trying to get by
In this world of chaos
Why must she make me cry
When all I do is question
Why cant I just die
I've given up on trusting my mom
Shes the reason for my hurt
My sanity is like a time bomb
With destruction I do flirt
All I have to say
Is that I'm sorry for being me
I wish I could go away
And leave your fears be
I know I'm not worthy of your care
You've proven that fact to me
I'm sorry Im always there
When you wish me not to be
I tried my best
Im sorry its not good enough
My weakness I do detest
I guess you called my bluff
My last words to you shall be
That I am sorry for being me
Author notes
This is for my mother
A contest entry
- Simply Sad by Dorcha Runda.
420 points, ended May 26, 2008, 37 entries
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Very Sad,
I only wish you the best in your future days, may they be much more brighter. Thanks for sharing your thoughts here, well done. Peace, Timothy aka poeticweaver~
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so strong and full with emotion
i am so sorry doll
it hurts to know your hurting so much
and the pein is bad but with it being from someone who is suppose to love you and not hurt you makes it all the worse sorry but your strong and just keep that head up and smile on things will be ok much love
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I'm so sorry this happened to you. Thank you so much for your entry and good luck.
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Awww hunny, this is so touching and very sad, seems like something happened again, always the fights, silence and everything between you and her...
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WOW! Power in depth and sadness...believe it or not I used to have this relationship with my mother and I left home young, but she did not hate me...she was in pain and hated herself...we often take it out on those closes to us when we do not know what to do...hold on, you both shall find your way...
Best to you!
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Wow.
Hunni that is amazing. You're such an inspiring writer. Everything you pen is to die for. No pun intended.
Though, I've got to tell you that i relate to this more than anyone will ever know. I'm so very sorry this is happening and i want you to know that she NEVER has a right to hate you, not to care for you.
Obviously she doesn't deserve you and she is the blemish on your face, not the other way around. Remember that. You're an amazing person.
Great writer and Friend. <333
~IvoRy
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