mother may i
lay my head upon your chest
tell you all my fears
let them lye with you in rest
i remember as a child
gazing through my window pane
something inside me changing
it was the devil hiding in the rain
no mommy, don't turn out the light
although there is nothing under bed
the monsters are inside of me
dancing in my head
i can still smell him burning
consumed by the flames
my brother before me dying
life never to be the same
i can't forget her terror
screaching breaks and breaking glass
just beyond my reach
my sister flies to a pavement crash
how could you not come find me
out here all alone
sometimes you overlooked me
inside of our own home
insuing years of darkness
drenching self in black
so hard to see a future
that's haunted by my past
did you hit the floor
when the call came
a shotgun blast in the night
and dying is your son zane
as my fists clenched the gravel
blood poured onto my chest
i thought my hell was over
at last i'd get some rest
i learned so young to not fight death
lye here and be still
the silence overwhelmed me
sometimes it haunts me still
the only way to find you
is remembering where i stand
still lost within myself
a boy inside this man
i have brought you no flowers
just pain i no longer wish to keep
i wish that i could hold you
but it's hard when you're six foot deep
so many i've seen fallen
it makes me kind of numb
if i could bring them back
you'd be the only one
where was i mommy
all those years
through all your pain
and all your fears
did you ever ask yourself
"what kind of son could he be"
even with your sickness
that i refused to see
raging, was your private hell
cancer running through
sometimes the devil loves me
i guess he loves you to
rest now mother, you saved this boy
as i leave here now a man
more often i will return
with flowers in my hand
A contest entry
- A moment in life. Part 1. by Angelflower.
1250 points, ended April 8, 2008, 13 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Comments
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awww wow this piece is amazing,
it kept mw hooked all the way through,
my faveourite stanza was:
"so many i've seen fallen
it makes me kind of numb
if i could bring them back
you'd be the only one"
becuase it adds a hope to the poem,
like a dark poem with twists of light,
i really like the rhymeing scheme and pattern too,
blessed be,
Elektra
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wow! This have given me shivers. This is such a sad insight on your life. I have said this before, and I will say this again. I can't get over how much stuff you have been through. This is truely an amazing and personal write. Thank you for sharing this with us, and best of luck in the contest, however, I think that you have achieved much more then a Gold trophy.
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What can there be said to such a piece as this.. What words on this earth can convey my emotions when reading this I cry... What is there that can bring back those we miss and those that meant so much... Life is a graceless dance that leads us by our hearts.. I thank you for this friend.. It made me cry but it let me know that I am not alone...
Thank you very much..
Peace to you,
Jetleena
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